I Don't Want To Say It

August 2

I was a bit too scared to call her yesterday, I muster up enough courage to do so. I wanted to be polite, so I bought her a dress, just so that I can be seen as a kind person to her, yet, you can't always be too kind. I told her that we will get to see her on August 5, just a small compromise, and of course, I asked for Kujo to come with me, not like I NEED him for anything... Anyways, I got bored and started scribbling with Kujo's pen, the one he found under my dress (which I find awfully perverted and coincidental), either way, I wrote things in code, for example, writing the word water, but make it look like it's falling, WATER-FALL will be what it'll say, another example is a flower beside a vase, FLOWER-VASE, do you understand? Good. Kujo was peeking over my shoulder asking me what I'm doing.

"Victorique, how come are you drawing two little people shaking hands and the letter 'E'?"

I explained it to him, "Fair-e, fairy? Understand?" I observed him carefully.

"Oh, okay then" Kujo said.

After that, for no apparent reason, I started making scribbles, not only with Kujo's blue pen, but also with a pen I bought at a store yesterday. I felt like Kujo will ask me again what I'm doing. Actually, I was wrong, Kujo did not say anything, he just carefully observed my actions. I wonder what's going on in Kujo's head; I felt tired and stopped. Kujo stopped looking at me; I crumpled up the paper I drew on and simply tossed it on the ground. Though, Kujo picked it up, and placed it in his pant pocket. I already feel him trying to decode the little scribbles of codes I've made, and already guessing what I was drawing of the blue and orange scribble. I feel like taking a nap right now, I just guess I'm tired.