All My Shit Is In A Book

He Should Have Said No

You should have said no.

I looked at you and it was all I could see.

A flash of it here,

Then a flash of it there,

Your chain probably didn't come off while it was happening, did it?

It doesn't matter anyways.

It happened and I have a feeling nothing will be the same.

I know how drunk, how high, how much shit you had in your system.

I know how little she'd had to drink.

I know how backstabbing she can be.

But you're not out of my woods, out of any of our woods.

You should have gone home.

You should have said no.

You should have thought twice before you screwed her best friend.

She didn't deserve it,

She didn't need to have her heart broken like that.

She shouldn't be asking herself why,

Or crying herself to sleep at night.

She should have been there in the back of your mind,

Maybe she was

Or maybe not

However it should never have happened

But it did

And now you've lost everything.

Your girl, your mind, your family, your happiness.

You'll get it back someday

I truly hope you do

But I also hope you realize the shit storm you've caused

Simply because you didn't go home and you didn't say no.

A/N: B, if you read this, which you won't, but if you do, Im no longer mad, I understand the pain you're feeling, the regret. I saw you at Christmas and I hope I never see you so sad again. But I want you to know I'm always going to stick by K no matter how upset she gets at you or R. It should have never happened and so help me if it ever does again. You lost. K lost. Whether R knows it or not she lost too. And so did I. I hope from the very bottom of my heart that you find yourself again. And I hope everyone's pain goes away. Stay beautiful and be kind- Ash