e v e r y t i m e (hs)

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Author's Note: HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2019 wasn't really my year for writing. I've been through a spiritual transformation in the late half of 2019. It's has been like hell so here's to 2020. I hope 2020 treats y'all the best as all your wishes come true. I hope everyone finds peace with themselves. Anyways, as promised, here is an update of everytime. Love, May.

June 18th, 2019. NYC.

"It's like I'm the universe and you'll be"

"N A S A!" I shouted.

"Give you the whole world, I'ma need space

I'ma need space, I'ma, I'ma need" I sang along to Ariana.

"You know I'm a star, space" I continued to sing along, turning around to Adam. "I'ma need space. I'ma need space"

Adam stepped closer to me.

"Sorry" Adam smiled while wrapping his arms around my waist. "Can't have that"

I smirked, blushing. I stood up on my tippy toes and kissed him. The music and the cheers of the crowd entered through one ear and escaped the other. Everything around me became a blur except for Adam. The only thing I could focus on in the moment was the taste of Adam's lips. I pulled away from Adam when I felt his hands settle on my ass

"Do you want to get out of here?" Adam asked me.

"Not yet" I answered him, shaking my head at him. "My favorite song of hers is coming up"

"Are you sure?" Adam asked me. "There's tomorrow too"

I smiled, nodding at him.

"I'm sure" I said to him before turning back around.

"Bottom line," I watched Ariana song. "Usually, I would love it if you stay the night. I just think I'm on another page tonight"

I crossed my arms, letting out a sigh.

I was happy. I was happy, at least I thought I was. My album was dropping on Saturday so, I was extremely excited for everyone to hear it. Harry heard it a week ago and his reaction to it was anything but horrible. Also, I was going to perform the album at Radio City Music Hall next week for the first time. To top it off, I had a boyfriend to share the night with. I should be happy. I should be but I didn't feel like I was.

"Baby, I can't really miss you if I'm with you and when I miss you, it'll change the way I kiss you" Ariana sang. "Baby, you know time apart is beneficial. It's like I'm the universe and you'll be"

"N A S A!" The crowd sang.

I looked at the two girls who sat in front of the vip section. They were singing and dancing their heart out to each other. They reminded me of Ali and I when we were younger. I remember going to countless of last minute concerts with her and vlogging them before it had become a thing. Jonas Brothers, Miley Cyrus, Lady Gaga, Justin Bieber. We always went together to concerts. Well, we used to. Now, I have to drag other people to come with me. I never had to drag Ali. Ali was my ride and die. Shit, I missed Ali. Ali was supposed to be here instead of Adam. I wanted her here.

"Hey" Adam said, taping on my shoulder.

"What?" I asked, turning around to him.

"I'm heading to the bathroom" Adam told me. "You'll be fine on your own, right?"

"Yeah" I nodded. "I'll be fine. Go ahead"

I turned back around before I could even see what Adam's reaction was.

"You don't wanna leave me, but I'm tryna self-discover" Ariana sang. "Keep me in your orbit and you know you'll drag me under"

I crossed my arms, letting out a sigh.

I'd rather be alone tonight

You can say "I love you" through the phone tonight, mmm mm

. . .

Later.

I walked into the bathroom, peeling my shirt off of me. I let the fabric fall to the floor, too tired to throw it in the laundry basket. I looked down to the floor, unhooking the necklace on me. I placed the necklace on the sink's counter. I watched Adam lean against the bathroom's door in the mirror above the sink.

"Yeah?" I asked, turning to him. "What's up?"

Adam stepped closer to me.

"Nothing" Adam said, placing his hands on my waist. "Just admiring you"

I smiled, blushing from his words. I reached up on my tippy toes to kiss him. Adam took the chance to move his hands down to my ass. I felt him pinch my ass, making me pull away from him. Usually I didn't mind any of my partners touching me there but tonight, I didn't feel comfortable.

"Can we not tonight?" I asked him. "I'm not in the mood"

"Why not?" Adam asked me. "Something bothering you?"

"I'm just on my period" I lied to him. "Got some cramps"

"Oh," Adam said, letting go of me. "Do you need anything? Advil? A heating pad?"

"No, no" I told him. "I have Advil behind the mirror here anyways. I just want to take a shower"

"Alright" Adam said. "I'll be in bed"

I nodded at him. Adam walked out of the bathroom, closing the door behind him. I turned around to the sink, taking my phone from the sink's counter. I unlocked it and went to my messages. I scrolled down, stopping until I saw Ali's name. I tapped on her name. I began to type to her.

Hey.

I looked down on the text.

I took a deep breath.

Hey, it's me. I know you probably don't want to hear from me now but I miss you and I have no one else to talk to except

I stopped typing. I locked my phone. I turned back to the mirror.

We needed time. Time will fix us. Time for her to fix her attitude.