DILEMMA

chapter 19

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Jake Miller takes me to his room which is up and up stairs. His opening his bedroom door with a key and it seems his struggling because his been thrusting and turning for some time. It seems it's triggering him, his facial expression shows belligerence and anger. He angrily begins to push and turn the door knob until it breaks and falls off to door.

The door meticulously opens and Jake Miller stares at me embarrassed and I stare awkwardly at him. He opens the door further letting me in as he says, "go in.." his voice sounding small and awkward.

I enter slowly into this huge bedroom, it's literally enormous. The walls are colored blue, his huge master king sized bed is sitting at the left wall closer to a huge window with blue curtains with small sports cars in each side of the window, at the right is a huge wardrobe and a door leading probably to the bathroom and also a much larger bookshelf closer to it a blue couch.

I'm entering meticulously as I stare around his room. It's a very blue room like the color of his eyes. The boy seriously loves blue.

He closes the door that he almost broke in rage and walks over to me whose standing idol starring around. I turn and stare at him and all the awful memories beforehand come flashing back in my mind.

I'm still angry and very frustrated with my mother for her behavior towards me. She treats me like a child and makes me dance to her tunes. I'm sick and tired of everything and I just wanna break lose from that shell, the she's she's keeping locked in her case.

Jake must have noticed my Changed facial expression because he asks, "come sit down." He takes me to his huge bed and makes me sit on the edges.

I sit on the bed as I'm starring him quietly. He begins his blabbing, "you shouldn't have acted that way. You know she's your mother, don't you?" He sits next to me as he exclaims.

"Dah I know that but she's controlling me over and over again and I seriously hate it..." Jake Miller doesn't even let me finish, "she feels that's best for you, she's trying to protect you."

She's not protecting me, she's only making me weak and weaker each day. She's not letting me know the truth. The simple truth that she's trying to hide from me my entire life. I wanna know it.

I'm foaming in anger now, "she's not Jake she's hiding something from me and I feel it. I know she is, she's afraid that if I go back to Danville town I'll find out the truth." I stand up quickly as I say sounding harsh and furious.

Jake Miller asks, "how sure are you she's hiding something from you?" He raises an eyebrow as he asked me.

I turn and face him then say, "not sure but...but listen to me I've been having these nightmares. They are telling me something..something, they are reviving to me my old memories..." Jake Miller again interrupts me before I finish.

He says as he stands up, "you've told me already about them Grace but how do they have to do with your mother."

"Listen Jake Miller these nightmares this time they showed me my past, my old life. It included my father apparently and mom was there I heard her voice." I'm saying all that as tears begin to form in my eyes.

Jake holds my shoulders tightly and mutters, "was it in the cabin? Did you have that nightmare in the cabin."

I node my head immediately agreeing, my mom is the only one who can explain all this to me. She's the only one who knows exactly what's happening to me or better what happened.

I murmur as tears just begin to fall off my eyes, "she's the only one who has the answers to everything Jake. Don't you get it? She knows it all and she's choosing to leave it all behind because she's afraid to tell me the truth."