Say yes to heaven - A Bucky Barnes Story [Original Version]

The Confession

The next morning Pia took the elevator to the first floor. She had terrible back pain. She would never sleep on a bar stool again. In the main room, everyone was gathered and grinning at her as she got out of the elevator. She stopped and turned her head.

"Okay, which one of you knows, she asked, not paying attention to Bucky being there. Everyone, except him and Steve, raised their hands.

Some even saw it, Nat grinned.

"What? Who? "

Slowly, Tony, Sam and Bruce raised their hands. Pia stared in disbelief between the three. "Really?! Guys, youre such perverts. And Bruce, I really didnt expect you to do that. "

"Sorry Pia, but with movies, its like with books: I just cant stop, no matter how bad they are.

Pia and Steve gave him a dark look, while everyone else laughed and Tony even beat up Bruce.

You didnt feel it, you just saw it, Pia hissed and went into her room.

What are they talking about, Bucky whispered to Steve.

"I dont know, Buck. Nobody said anything to me either."

He quickly tried to distance himself from Bucky and sat down on the couch. Somehow he felt bad. Everything between him and Pia would stay the same, but if he told Bucky about what happened, he would definitely be mad at him. He knew that Pia meant a lot to Bucky. He didnt know what to do. On the one hand, he didnt want to hurt his best friend, especially now that they found each other. But on the other hand, Bucky himself was to blame for not being with Pia. He was sure she would have said yes long ago, but Buckys always been a stubborn one.

After a long time of reflection, he decided to tell Bucky. It would only be fair and he deserved to know the truth. Bucky would get angry, but maybe he would finally realize that things couldnt go on between him and Pia. So he just got up and went to Bucky.

Come on, I have something to tell you."

"Now?"

"Yes, NOW."

"Okay..." Without further reply, Bucky followed him to his room across the hall. Bucky sat down on Steve's bed while Steve picked up a desk chair, rolled it in front of Bucky and finally sat down on it.

"So, whats so urgent?"

"First of all, Im glad youre getting out of your room and not hiding from everyone."

"Okay, but thats not all."

"No." He thought about it. Maybe he should have thought about what exactly he was going to say.

"Hey, Steve. Now tell me. Otherwise, Ill go back."

Steve took a deep breath. "All right, but please dont kill me right now. And dont go to your room either. And. . . "

Bucky laughed. "Stevie, come on. Why would I suddenly. . .Steve, what have you done?"

"I. . . well. . . wow. Honestly, I know what they were talking about out there. I never thought Id say this, but. . . I slept with Pia."

Buckys gaze changed quickly. From dark to sad. Then to confused and disappointed again. Steve looked at him with concern.

"Buck, say something, please." Bucky looked up at him. His look almost broke Steves heart.

"I don't know what to ask first. . . I mean, so was that you guys at the bar yesterday?"

Steve nodded hardly noticeably.

"Please believe me that I never planned to hurt you. Pia was lonely and kissed me and then. . ."

"I get it." Bucky nodded slowly and then got up to go to the door.

"Bucky, please dont go."

He turned back to Steve.

"Just give me one, just one damn reason why I should stay."

"So we can talk," Steve whispered, a little intimidated by Buckys growing voice.

"Tell me? You mean so you can tell me ten more times how sorry you are that you fucked my dream woman?"

Now Steve got up.

"Your dream woman? Honestly, this is so ridiculous. Im not usually like that, you know that, but you need to wake up. Shes in love with you, and youre in love with her. So why dont you just ask her if she wants to be your girlfriend?"

"You have no idea."

"Then explain it to me, Bucky. "

But Bucky didn't react. Steve finally ran towards him.

"Tell me what the fuck is going on."

Bucky shook his head slowly. He went to the door and opened it to walk, but there was Pia. She came here to talk to Steve again but had decided not to knock when she heard screaming from the room. Bucky stopped and stared at her.

"Look who came here to see you, Stevie. Well, here for a rehearsal from last night? "

Without waiting for a reaction from her, he ran past her towards his room. She was supposed to be angry about what he had just said, but the relief she felt because she knew for sure how Bucky felt for her, completely suppressed the anger.

She ran after him. Before she could reach him, however, he slammed the door in her face. She hammered against it.

"Bucky, open the door. Please. You know we need to talk." No answer.

"All right, then you wont come out, but you cant stop me from talking to you. If you dont listen to me, dont, but I have something to say. You dont have a fucking right to be mad about this. If youd just talked to me instead of wanting to sleep with me, maybe it wouldve happened and wed be a whole lot further. So were both to blame. And sleeping with Steve of all people may have been stupid for you, but it was my decision, and until you tell me what you want from me, Im gonna keep making my decisions regardless of your opinion. Apart from that, it was completely meaningless anyway. And yet it was the best fucking sex Ive ever had, and I have absolutely no regrets. "

Her last words had grown louder and she hoped no one had heard her. Something inside her told her it was wrong to say all that. She quietly waited for Bucky to answer her. Meanwhile, he was sitting on the floor leaning against the door and thinking about the pile of information and feelings that were literally overloading him. And he realized she was right. He wanted to sleep with her, but he never said how he really felt about her. He couldnt blame her for everything. She just wanted her fun.

"Okay, thats not true," he heard Pia say. "I regret it. I regret every second. Not because it was Steve, but because it wasnt you. I had to think about you most of the time after that. I wish you were the person who was up there with me. Bucky, I. . . "

She took a deep breath.

"I fell in love with you, Bucky."

Nervous, she continued to stand at his door. When there was still no sign of him, she went to her room. Right after she closed her door, he opened his. Hed missed it. For a short time, he toyed with the idea of knocking on her door, but he quickly dropped it again. A little disappointed, he closed his door again. He leaned against the door.

"And I love you."