𝐀 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐒 | 𝒋𝒐𝒔𝒉𝒖𝒂 𝒃𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒕𝒕

𝟎𝟎𝟒. 𝒎𝒚 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈

Josh's POV

𝐈 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃𝐍'𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐊 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 today, I messed up several times; I was constantly dropping my skateboard - it'a not that hard to hold a damn rectangle with wheels - and I stuttered so many lines (I don't stutter, ever). Thankfully everyone played it off to first day nerves, and they relied on me to have my shit together the next day.

I had my phone in the 'wrong' pocket and panicked thinking that I lost it, like I was expecting something from it. Why would she text me though? She broke up with me; she wouldn't want to catch up after this 'reunion'.

And I'm the one who told her to keep the distance like we were 'acquaintances' - just two people on a set having to get along. I was saying all that because I thought that's what she wanted. So why was I expecting a message from Coco to appear all day. Jesus, I was annoying myself. Also I needed to change that name, maybe we shouldn't keep our nicknames.

For today's shoot, we got through the first gymnasium scene with Miss Jen a.k.a Kate Reinders, and we finished the some of the audition scene by sundown. Ricky had to run into the room to perform for Nini, but it felt like me singing to Olivia and desperately trying not to look at anyone else. But I couldn't help it at times. Chloe concentrated on me in the crowd of school kids, well Ricky; I felt her eyes on me as I looked into Olivia's eyes. 

The blur between reality and acting became extreme. Just stepping on the stage made my breath rapid and shallow, I felt my pulse pounding in my temples. The scene was still going, I looked around at the whole crowd before concentrating on Olivia, trying not to smirk at Matt's amazing expression of anger. I couldn't help but try to just glaze over Chloe's face, but it felt like my eyes went in slow motion for her. I wonder if she remembered I did a less romantic version of this serenade for her, on Instagram. Okay now I was REALLY annoying myself.

Chloe hung out with pretty much the whole cast, being the bond between the extras and the leads. Everyone liked her, but no one knew her like I did. I could sense she was still slightly shy, but maybe that was because of me. I was around for most of it, since our group was so big it was easy to feel detached, yet connected to her.

Now that today was done, I craved for a night at home to regroup and get over this rut. I couldn't continue this unprofessionalism. I was finally alone, none of the cast was there to observe my suspicious behaviour, I could be as irritated as I wanted. However I soon heard the metal of the steps clatter outside my trailer.

"Hey man, did I leave my earphones in here?" Matt asked, as he walked into the space and immediately started splitting the furniture apart on a mission.

"Calm down Matty they're here - catch" I said before grabbing it where I left them, and tossing the case at him; he caught it with ease.

I thought that was all he wanted and was going to bid his adieu, however he lingered his presence, waiting for me to look back at him. I sighed after five seconds of silence, and glanced over to him sitting on the couch. I didn't want to start this conversation, but he wasted no time.

"So it's safe to say that you're the not new girl's biggest fan. I'm guessing you guys were enemies or you were...the exact opposite?" Matt teased. I scoffed as he winked at me.

"Yeah I guess we were...close, for a while but like it's fine now. Everyone's moved on, and she's doing really well in the show. And that's all the therapy I need thanks." I replied sardonically, still not looking at Matt and continuing my packing.

"I think everyone here knows that when you don't make eye contact, you're lying. And trust me, so does she." Matt said and I jolted my eyes to him. He grinned as he truly got my attention.