The Beginning

How Three Months of Lies Began...

Stef POV

Lena and I have been dating for about three months now...

Three months since I told her I got a divorce to be with her. Three months since I have been hiding my marriage to Mike. Three months of lies.

My relationship with Lena is getting pretty serious. I mean we already had sex and I have been feeling so guilty after that. But, I only slept with her because Tess told me that Lena would lose interest and end things with me. Technically all of this is Tess' fault. She told me to lie and start a relationship with Lena in the first place.

Things with Tess are complicated. Tess Brown was my best friend in highschool. When we were 15, my dad caught us cuddling on the couch and he literally exploded because he thought we were kissing or something. He was so furious that he kicked Tess out of the house and sent me to a Christian boarding school for a year where the ministers kept telling me that being gay was a sin. Anyway, when Lena and I kissed for the first time, I was confused and Tess was the only person I thought of who knew exactly what I was going through. So I tracked her down, only to find out that she was a lesbian.

-FLASHBACK-

Wow. This is Tess' house? It's huge! I walk up the steps that lead me to a big frosted door with rod iron designs (fancy) and I just stand there, staring at it.

A few seconds pass.

One minute.

Then two... and I still haven't knocked.

Ugh. Why am I so nervous? Oh yeah, I'm about to tell her that I think I have feelings for another women. Just breathe in and out. Here we go.

I take a deep breathe and I reach to knock. Maybe this is a mistake. Maybe I should just turn around and leave.

"Oh my God, Stef???" An average height blonde with a big smile stands in front of me. She looks just as I remembered her except a little more mature and a better body. Really Stef? You're straight and you're married to a man... remember??? Stop checking her out!

"Hi Tess." I let go of a breathe I didn't know I was holding. We just stand there awkwardly staring at each other, waiting for one of us to make the next move. Luckily, she does and I don't have to.

"Uh... come on in." She opens the door wide enough for me to enter her house and leads me to her living room. "Do you want anything to eat or drink?" I shake my head no. I don't have the courage to talk. Another awkward silence. "It's been awhile. I think 13 years since I last saw you. How are you? How's life?" Classic Tess - never wanting it to be quiet.

"Um... things are okay. Remember Mike Foster?" I catch her tensing up when I mention Mike. That was weird. "Well, we actually started dating again in college and shortly after we graduated, we got married. Now we have a five year old son, Brandon."

She seems shocked. "I can't believe you married your high school sweetheart. That's amazing. "

"It could be better." I looked down from embarrassment.

"What do you mean?"

"Well, Mike and I are going through a rough time right now. We don't even sleep in the same room anymore."

"Oh."

Awkward silence. This time longer than usual. Maybe I should tell her about Lena. But what exactly? 'I think my marriage is failing because I imagine what my life could be like with a woman instead of a man.' Or how about 'Things aren't working with me and Mike. Maybe I should leave him and try again but this time with women.'