The Beginning

Meet the Friends

It's been a week since Lena found out the truth. I keep leaving her voice mails but she doesn't return them. Maybe I should give her some space. I think we both need some space. It's probably for the best.

To make things worse, my mom isn't talking to me about it. Not that I'm complaining but I know that she is deliberately ignoring me. The good news is that she didn't tell my dad or Mike anything, so I still have some time to think everything over.

I'm not one to believe in some sign telling me what to do, but maybe this is one. As bad as I feel for saying this, maybe I should try to forget Lena for now and try to salvage whatever I have left with Mike. I need to... for Brandon. He deserves to have his parents at least try to fix their family. Honestly, I have no idea what I got myself into. I'm hurting so many people by being selfish.

But am I really being selfish for questioning who I am? For thinking that my whole life could be a lie?

Ugh... I HATE THIS! I wish Lena was here to tell me that everything will be okay. Why can't I stop thinking about her?!?! I wonder how she is. If she's crying because of the pain I caused her. I never thought she would fall in love with me. Up until the night we slept together, our relationship had just been like dating my best friend. There was always that sense of security and love that any friendship has but there was also the commitment a relationship has. Even though I wasn't exactly committed to Lena because of my marriage, whenever I was with her she was my only concern. Even when I wasn't with her, I was always thinking about her; how to make her happy.

And then we had sex. Everything just moved so quickly. There was so much pressure to be the girlfriend she wanted me to be.

-FLASHBACK-

"You don't have to be nervous." Lena grabs my hand to stop me before we reach the door to her friends' house. After two months of secretly dating, Lena and I decided to tell her friends. So far we have only told Jenna, Kelly, Molly and Tracy. Pretty much just Lena's close friends. Tonight were going to meet Hope and Kim. "They'll love you."

"I'm not worried, babe." Not about meeting them anyways. I don't know how much longer I can keep lying to her. "I have met your friends before." It starts like this. First we have a fun time meeting her friends then before I know it, I'm meeting her parents and I just won't be able to take it anymore and then I tell her everything... and break her heart.

We continue walking hand in hand slowly towards the door. "I know but you are meeting my friends that we'll be our friends for a very, very long time together." She grins towards me. Now I'm nervous. "But no pressure."

She pecked my cheek one last time before knocking on the door. "Thanks, babe." Here we go. Don't think about the future... especially when it involves you and Lena breaking up.

"Lena!!!" A redhead literally jumps into Lena's arms. Lena didn't tell me they were so enthusiastic. I look towards the blonde standing by the door in hope of an explanation. She just looks at me at silently chuckles. "I'm so happy for you."

"Thank you." Lena has the biggest smile on her face.

The redhead finally let's go of Lena and turns to me. "You must be Stef." Instead of giving me a handshake, she walked towards me and hugged me. "I'm Kim and this is my beautiful and amazing wife, Hope." Hope stares at Kim with loving eyes.

They both turn back to Lena and me. "It's so nice to meet you. I've heard so many great things about you."

I turn to Lena. "You have?" She blushes a little and looks down at the floor.

Kim steps back into the house. "Please come in." Lena and I follow our hostesses into the dining room.

Light conversation and laughter fill the room. Hope and Kim shared stories about their romantic getaways. Lena and I told them the story of how we met. All in all it was a very good dinner.