The Second World

-Dream-

Heraldic bird:

This bird, the Heraldic bird, was struggling out of the egg. The egg is its world. Anyone born, first must destroy a world. This bird is flying its maker...Its God... Abraxas.

Dream:

A picture appeared often in my mind which was the image of  angel and devil, man and woman, human and beast, the highest good and the worst evil. I often saw this dream which was miraculously clear; to which I spoke, wept before it, cursed it. I called it a supplement for mother, a friend or brother and knelt before it; I called it devil and a whore, vampire and a murderer, angel but a demon. It enticed me into the gentlest dreams of love and barren shamelessness; nothing was so good and precious, nothing so wicked and vile.

The worlds:

Both worlds were enclosed in my eyes. I was building a new world, my world; the link to both good and bad.
First it was bright but barren, representing my start and destiny; the love to keep myself happy when I was broken. Then it turned dark and rusty, filled with destruction and unanswered questions. It portrayed fake love...my fake love which forced and smile on my face but gave my no more happiness. I was drowning myself in utter darkness. I was under the control of someone or...was it something? I never got the answer. I started erasing myself to become it's doll... The floor under my feet started collapsing. I saw fire and water.. I saw myself in the mirror and the reflection was not happy; it cried for help.
I was caged inside a glass ball, it was heaving with abandonment, loneliness, sand of time and desire and surprisingly, light. Sometimes I found myself exposed in a room that reeked of evil. I felt eyes staring at me; hands approaching me...invading my secrets.
Finally my world was finished. It was joyful, as if there was a new year's era. It was my world, my beautiful world of light, greenary, people, rightness. But, there were angels and devil's too. But still I was lost and couldn't find myself. It was as if there were others. The others were my utopia. I was wrong. I needed help.

I was standing alone...in the gloom with no one to save me.

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                                         -Lumine