Dreams That Do Not Matter (gmw fanfiction)

Girl Meets Drifting Apart

Verity's POV

At the end of the gym period when I start heading to the changing rooms, coach Harris stops me. I motion for Missy, who halts to a stop as well, to go on without me. 

"I know you've already said that you don't plan to join the cheer team..." coach Harris starts and I would interrupt her right there if I didn't have to keep in mind that I need to respect her. "But, one of my cheerleaders got injured during the last practice and we need someone to take her place until she heals properly. I have already seen that you have the skills needed. Could you consider at least temporarily standing in for her?"

"I don't know..." I hesitate. I don't really want to do it. But the cheer team needs someone to stand in for the injured girl. And it would be easier to avoid Lucas, which gets more difficult and painfully obvious day by day. I finally agree, "I guess, if it's only temporary, I could help out. I probably won't be able to make it to every practice though. But I'll try to be there as much as possible. 

And thus, I leave to change from my gym clothes and trying to figure out how to fit cheer practices into my already exhausting schedule. But at least it may take my mind off things going on (or not going on) between me and Lucas. I'm pretty sure he has no idea what this is all about and I feel bad for that but there's no way I could tell him. Even if I was able to do that, the situation would go back to how it was before I started to avoid him. That would be no good.

I tell Missy about this temporary commitment I made on our way to the next class and afterwards, I tell her that I won't be around for the lunch break due to cheer practice.

Lucas' POV

While waiting for lunch, I try to search for Verity's face in the crowd but I have no luck. I take my lunch and head to our table. 

Shortly after, Missy joins me and Daniel and starts explaining Verity's absence, "She told me that coach Harris asked her to be a part of her cheer team temporarily because one of the cheerleaders got injured. She agreed to it. As she told me, they have practice during lunch break today so she won't be joining us this time."

I am slightly upset with the news. And it's not because I wouldn't be happy for her for the fact that the coach chose her. I know that she has a lot of potential due to being aerialist, and very talented at that, and all. I just don't think she really wants to do this. She tends to avoid any activities that involve teams due to the tendency of other people at school to disliker her without actually getting to know her. And there is also the fact that I really can't imagine how she's going to find time for cheerleading when she already has so much that if it was anyone else, they would already drop due to exhaustion.

Of course, Verity would help if someone asked her but I have a feeling that the reason she agreed to this is partly due to whatever is wrong between us at the moment, which I still have no idea about. Perhaps she thought it would be easier to avoid me this way. Or I'm thinking of myself too much. I'm aware that her world doesn't revolve around me. I'm just really confused. I wish I knew what she is thinking.

Before I realize it, the lunch break is almost over and I have barely touched my food. I look around and find out that the cafeteria is empty except for a few people still lingering here. One of them is Daniel who's still next to me in a visible attempt to figure out what's wrong with me. 

I hear a voice kind of indistinctly and it takes me a moment to realize it belongs to me, "What do you think has been with Verity lately? Or is it something I did? Why is she suddenly avoiding me?"

Daniel sighs but he looks kind of relieved about me finally showing some sign of life. "I don't really know. To tell you the truth, I feel out of loop most of the time when it comes to the two of you. I know that there is something strong between you two but things just don't make sense most of the time when it comes to Verity."

"It is pretty complicated, huh?" I acknowledge the truth. "I didn't want it to be, though. But I think I remember Verity telling me that it's not going to get any less complicated with her when I tried to ask her out that one time so I guess I've been warned. It's just, I still think she's worth all that."

Daniel appears to be thinking for a few seconds. "Maybe you should ask Missy. She usually has the most insight when it comes to Verity. They are twins, after all."

"I think I will. Now, let's get going. We don't want to be late to class."

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I enter the gymnasium prepared for baseball practice and I notice several other people from the team already sitting there, waiting. I join them. I look at the reason for our waiting and notice that the cheer team still hasn't finished. I take the time to watch Verity. It's not much but it's the most I have seen of her these days. 

Someone sits next to me and after taking my eyes off Verity, I find Zay sitting there. But I get back to watching Verity shortly after. 

Zay suddenly speaks up, probably catching my line of sight, "What is she doing on the team? I remember Riley being upset upon finding out coach Harris doesn't want freshmen in her team."

"It's just temporary," I explain. "She's a stand-in for some girl from the team who got injured."

Then there is silence. Well, as much silence as there can be in a room full of cheerleaders. I'm so entranced at looking at Verity that I fail to realize it when I comment absently, "I just wish we weren't so distant right now..." Then I catch myself. I forgot that me and Zay aren't exactly on friendly terms anymore. 

I turn my head to him slightly to see if he registered my words, hoping that he didn't. But he's already looking at me with a frown and somehow undecipherable expression. "You know, Riley wouldn't do this to you."

I get a faraway look while watching Verity land a backflip perfectly. "I know but Verity deserves so much more than she ever gets."

With that being said, our conversation is over almost as quickly as it started. 

Missy's POV

I exit the changing rooms located next to the dance classroom after being held up at my ballet class. It's really great that this school has ballet as an elective. 

I take my things from my locker in a rush, not wanting to miss my train to the ballet studio I practice at. How ironic it would be if I was late for ballet practice due to more ballet. That could surely happen only to me. But one day, all this hard work will be worth it. 

Suddenly, I hear steps hurrying after me and turn around to see Lucas out of breath. I wait for a moment to let him catch his breath and look at him questioningly. He takes one last gulp of air and proceeds to talk about whatever he came here for, "Please, couldn't you tell me why Verity is avoiding me? You are her twin sister and all so you probably know much more about this than I do." He's basically begging for me to give him some answers.

Unfortunately, I cannot comply to his plea, "I'm sorry, I can't help you on this one. We don't talk much about things like that."

He looks despaired, "You don't know either? This is hopeless."

"I never said that. I know what this is most probably about," I stop myself before I can tell him more than I'm supposed to. It's not my place. "But she has to be the one to tell you."

His shoulders sag even more. "I would like to do that but it's basically impossible with all the effort she puts into avoiding me," the frustration is noticable in his voice. "I just miss her and don't want to lose her for good," he admits. 

At this, I give him a small encouraging smile, "I wouldn't worry too much about that if I were you even though I have to admit I am a bit worried about Verity right now. But as for your concerns, I don't think she would be able to lose you either. No matter what she wants herself to believe."