Dreams That Do Not Matter (gmw fanfiction)

Girl Meets Out Of Control

Lucas' POV

Honestly, I'm a mess. I tried to give Verity some space, I thought that it will get better if I give it time. But over two months have already passed since I've last spoken to her and she's still avoiding me. It really is visible now, she spends almost no time with us when me, Missy and Daniel are together and the only one she still hangs out with at this point is Missy, understandably. I sometimes feel  almost jealous how she never has to doubt her place in Verity's life. 

Somehow, I cannot find anything fun about high school without her around. I was looking forward to starting the new school year with the four of us as friends. It was supposed to be the first time starting like that. But then she fainted and that triggered my fear of losing her and somehow also her avoiding me and I have no idea if I did something to push her away or what. Even Missy, who has always been helping me when it comes to Verity, refused to tell me anything.

It doesn't matter if I get great test scores or if I do well on baseball practice. It fails to make me actually satisfied. It's like everything is less fun without Verity. But I'm determined to try to fix things with her as soon as I get the opportunity.

How much hopeless can I get? I pay for tickets to come to her performances just to see her at all, at least from a distance. And as much as I like seeing her performances, I never thought the chances of me seeing her would be reduced to this. It doesn't even matter that we have most classes together. I don't like how she tries to make me forget she exists.

Another thing that I do not enjoy is being the only one out of the four of us to have Health class together with my former friends. Due to being unable to pay attention during History because of staring at Verity constantly, I almost forgot their tendency to overdramatize things. 

And in this particular case, Riley's unwillingness to accept the fact that she doesn't have control over everything. I mean, she may not like the way Health class is taught at this school but pushing her father into the role of our Health class teacher? Isn't that going a 'bit' overboard?

This situation makes me think of Verity just like everything else lately. She's the exact opposite of Riley when it comes to controlling things. No matter what happens in her life, she always just accepts it and deals with it without complaining. It must be difficult. I sometimes wonder how she and Missy got to the point of taking thing as they are automatically without attempting to do anything about them. What did they have to go through? It's like they have lost belief that things can change and get better for them. But isn't our friendship the proof of the fact that things really do change? Well, at least it used to be.

And... The situation with the Health class, surprisingly, ended up with Riley realizing that having her father teach her about her body, perhaps, isn't the best of ideas. Who would have thought? 

Towards the end of the lunch break, once almost everyone is already in their respective classrooms, Riley stops me at my locker. I reluctantly turn to her. I seriously don't feel like talking to her at the moment. 

I send her a questioning look and after that, she speaks up, "I had the most terrible week. I met someone who doesn't like me and I found out there are way too many things I have no control over. Please, tell me that this is not one of them. Please, be friends with me again."

I shake my head in disbelief, "You really think the issue of us no being friends anymore is in me? I wouldn't mind being friends with you. But you refuse to accept two of my friends. I care about them way too much to leave them."

"But from what I've heard from Zay, one of them isn't even friends with you anymore," she remarks kind of bitterly. 

"That's not true. We're still friends, I believe. She's just taken some distance. However, we'll be fine," I reply, trying to encourage myself by that.