love after heartbreak.

He knows the truth.

Thats the night my husband brutally raped me............

I couldn look at Noah when I told him I was looking at the sand that we were sitting on all I could think was that's it I have finally let someone in and now I have just ruined it all by telling him what happened to me. well I guess it was nice to know u Noah. 

My thoughts are interuped when  Noah pulled me into his arms and hugged me he never said anything as of yet but I no he wants to no  how and when so I started to tell him what I no he was thinking.

It happened  just over a year ago Leo was drunk as usual at the weekend so I went to bed early as when hes drinking hes a completely different person. so instead of getting his hurtful words or worse his fists I went to bed. I was asleep when I was woke up to him shaking me to get me up. I rolled over told him to get into bed I was tired and wasn't listening to him when he had drink in him. well it was like a light had went on in his head next thing I no is he as me pulled by my legs across the bed trying it on with me by kisses my face lips and neck. I pushed him off telling him to get to bed I didn want him touching me. He lost it he gripped me so hard my arms had started to bruise there and then. I struggled I kicked and tried everything I could to get him off me but I couldn next thing I no he has ripped my nightdress up and my pants down I begged for him to stop I pleaded with him not to do it it wasn rite I didn want to. He didn listen he forced himself into me and I just froze I started to cry and I couldn move with shock then he flipped me over and forced himself into my back passage I cried and cried and cried I couldn stop I was in so much pain that I was shaking what felt like hours later he stopped rolled onto the bed and went to sleep. He left me there naked and bleeding. I don't no were I found the strength as I could hardly walk but I got up I put on a pair of trousers I went into the kids rooms I woke them up put them into the car and drove to their grandparents house. I knocked on their door told them to keep an eye on the kids that I would be back and I drove myself to the hospital. it was now around 3.30 in the morning. I was there for hours by myself replaying the whole thing in my head wondering what did I do for him to do this to me. Was it my fault that he done this to me did he not love me at all was all this time a lie? I started crying after that Noah was shhhhh me told me that everything is goin to be ok that he didn need to hear anymore. After a while I settled down and looked at Noah u see thats why I broke down when that guy grabbed me like that and smacked my ass it brought back some memories that I thought I was over but I guess I wasn't im sorry I have just put all of this on u and ruined your night now I understand if u want to go back.

Noah POV

I take one look at Emma and say why would I want to go back I would only be goin back there if you were coming with me. But let me ask  you this why did u tell me don't get me wrong im glad u did im glad im getting to no u a bit better but why? I don't no I feel like I can trust you i no we have only meet but u are the first guy I have even tried to let in since this all happened I haven't been intimate with a guy since all this so its a bit scary to even think of it. That was until I meet you. I take a look at Emma and lean in to kiss her I stop just before I do to make sure it was ok and she has grabbed my face and kissed me. Oh my this girl is goin to be the death of me. she pulls away and we lie back on the sand her head on my chest. Next thing I no she has jumped off and started to take off her grass skirt. Hey what are you doing? skinny dipping since I am the only one that seems to not of done it. So u joining me??? I am thinking Is this such a good idea she just told me what happened to her. My thoughts are interupted when I look up and she is running down to the water in only her bikini I get up and follow after her taking my clothes off on the way. When Emma reaches the water the top is gone and when she gets into the water she throws her bottoms at me and that was it I was in the water naked straight after. She is laughing she seems happy she dunks her head under the water and when she comes up again I am standing right in front of her. What are u doin???? Skinny dipping what does it look like? I have always wondered what it would be like to do this now that I am doin it im happy cold but happy. I take a step towards her and she puts her hands around my neck and we start to kiss. Things start to get really heated so I pull away. I look at her and say? As  much as I would love to take this further it would be better if we do it somewere bit more private and when u are ready to do so we have both had a lot to drink and don't want u regretting it. I wont regret it but I no were you are coming from. maybe we should get our clothes back on and go back to the party ur shivering. Yea sounds good.