love after heartbreak.

Boat trip!!!

Lets get sorted for this boat trip I need cheering up......

Sarah POV.

Me and Emma have been getting ready for the boat trip Noah has invited us on. I look over at Emma she is sitting on the bed with her head in her hands. Is she crying? Emma. She doesn look at me. Emma. Hey are you ok are you crying? Im ok just feel like an idiot. Why do you feel like that for? Because im still having nightmares and crying of that night it happened 18 months ago i thought I would be over it by now. Emma you went threw something really traumatic it will take you a while to get over it. Isnt that what your counseller said? Yea but. Emma looks at me weird and I question her. You are still goin to see her aren't you? I no by the way Emma is looking at me rite now that she isn't. Emma seriously why aren't you still seein her? I thought I was over it the nightmares had stopped and I was feeling ok so I stopped but now they are back really bad worse than before and its killing me. I go and sit beside her and put my arms around her to give her a hug she starts sobbing. Oh Emma why haven't u been  talking to me atleast you no I am here for you always. I no but I didn't want to put my problems onto your shoulders. Listen here you are my best friend I am here for u always just please talk to me don't go threw it all alone again please. I near lost you. I wont go back there I promise. Ok. Im wiping away tears that I have shed and get up off the bed to finish getting ready. Sarah? I turn around and look at Emma. I don't think I can go today. What come on Emma it will help you. You cant lock yourself up in here u need to get out. I cant go you on I promise I will be ok. I don't answer Emma goes into the bathroom I lift my phone and ring Adam. 

A- Hey Sarah are you guys near ready?

S- That's the thing is Noah there?

A- Yes we are waiting on you guys everything ok?

S- Not really can you put Noah on a sec please?

A- Sure hang on. 

I hear rushing in the back round and hear Adam hey man Sarah is on the phone looking you. 

N- Sarah whats up?

S- Emma is goin to kill me for ringing you but can u come next door please?

N- ok is everything ok?

S- No Emma had another breakdown and she wont go on the boat trip now.

N- Ok ill be straight there. 

Noah hangs up the phone and 2 seconds later the door knocks. I answer the door. Thanks Noah Emma is refusin to go and im afraid if I leave her here alone she will do something stupid. Its like shes rite back there and she was in a very bad place then. Ok were is she ill try talk to her? In the bathroom ill go next door leave use to it. 

Noah POV

Sarah has just left to go next door when the bathroom door opens Emma walks out. Noah what you doing here? Use should have left for the boat trip aleady. Yea I no but I came to talk to you. Sarah rang you didn she? Yes she did because shes worried about you she said something about shes afraid of you doin something stupid. Whats she talking about Emma? I I um ...... how do I tell you this? Ok after it happened I got myself and the kids somewere else to live I couldn go back into that house so my in laws packed up mine and kids stuff and I left. We were in the house about a week when the drinking started I drank every night to try get the nightmares to stop and it worked at first but then would come back ten times worse I would wake up in the middle of the night and couldn get back to sleep I was too afraid to close my eyes. This went on for about a month and I was totally drained so this one morning I had had enough and decided that was it it has to end. I dropped the kids off at school that morning came home went up to my room and took a load of pills with a lot of drink. I couldn see any other way out. That when Sarah found me I had passed out she rang an ambulance and I was rushed to hospital. If it wasn for her Noah I wouldn be her today. Emma was crying so I just wrapped my arm around her to comfort she her she started talking again. I was In the hospital a week until they would let me home they had to asses me to makesure I wouldn do it again. Sarah collected me from the hospital and took me home when we got there the kids greeted me at the door I was so happy to see them. I kissed and hugged them cause in that moment I realise how foolish I was. I had my kids and that's all I needed to keep me going. Me and Sarah went into the kitchen and that is when Sarah slapped me twice. I was so shocked I couldn speak she said the first one was for what I did I was so stupid and to never do it again and the second one she said look look at your kids you could have lost them and they could have lost you. They need you Emma. She then threw her arms around me and hugged me and we both cried. Thats when I decided I needed to speak to someone so I started seeing a counsellor and it helped a lot then I stopped I thought I was over it but these past few weeks have been different. To be honest the only time I haven't had a nightmare is the night I stayed with you. Noah you make me feel safe when im with you I no stupid as we have only meet but I don't no its strange. Emma I no what you mean I haven't felt as strong of a connection with anyone ever espesically this early on which is way I think you should go back to your counsellor when you get home you need to plus I kind of like having you In my life. I will thanks. Rite I stand up put my hand out for Emma. Lets go on this boat trip. I don't no wouldn want to ruin everyones day not really in the mood. Come on it will cheer you up ill even let you hold my hand the whole time if you need to now lets go. Emma stands up takes my hands I lift her bag and we leave the room.