love after heartbreak.

chapter 20

Noah POV.

I hear Emma choke after Ben asked if we will get married in the future. I see her go white she didn seem to like that question so I put her out of her misery. Ben come on we have just got together it's a bit soon to think about that. I look over at Emma and hear her let out a breath. I smile at her and she smiles back not her usual smile though. I think that question really annoyed her I will have to speak to her about it but not yet. I no we have only just got together officially but since we meet in ibiza I felt like we were together so in my eyes we have been together for months not a week and I haven't felt this strong about anyone in my whole life as I do about this woman. I sure am going to miss her when I start filming this movie but that's how my life is and I hope no I no we will be ok no woman has ever stuck with me when I go away to work for long periods of time and we always end up breaking up but I no Emma she isn't like those other woman that's part of the reason why I love her so damn much. We go back to talking and having few drinks. Emma is chatting away to Ben and they are laughing. Ben seems to like her which I'm glad about but my fans ain't too sure there has been some nasty comments under our pic on Instagram I have ignored them but I dont think Emma will if she sees them. I think I will just tell her now. Hey babe she turns and smiles at me  yea??? Have you seen Instagram since we put up that picture?? Nooooo I haven't why?? Well before you look just so you no ignore it all I am dont listen to what they are saying. Noah what is it??  There are some people saying nasty things about us. You mean about me??? Yea. Ok what are they saying?? Its doesn't matter. I see her jump up and grab her crutches and go into the kitchen I'm guessing to get her phone. Shit I get up and go after her. I see her looking at her phone. Emma?? She looks up I see tears in her eyes. Emma please dont cry dont listen to what they are saying   . Dont listen Noah are you serious it's all over the internet and i cant quite figure out which of them is worse. The ones that say I'm too old for you. Thee ones that say your too good for me. Or the one that says they thought you had better taste than that. Fk sake Noah how am I meant to ignore them. I start to walk over to her when I see her wipe a tear that has fallen down her face. Babe?? No I'm ok Noah they are only telling the truth anyways. I'm going to head up to bed now I'll see you in the morning. She walks straight past me and on her way up the stairs she says goodnight to Ben then turns and looks at me she gives me a smile a sad one at that and heads up the stairs. I stay in the kitchen for a little while longer when I hear the bedroom door close I go back into the living room. I sit down fkkkkkkkk. Is she ok?? I read the comments they are pretty brutal. No she's not and if I no my girl like I think I do she will try break up with me. Why would she do that? She wouldn't want me being with her ruin my career. Shit she really does care for you. Yea she does and I'll be damned if I let her break up with me because of some stupid comments she already feels so low about herself she doesn need other people telling her she not worth it. What do you think I should do Ben? Well if it was me i would write on my Instagram in the nicest way possible to fk off. I start to laugh and so does Ben. Seriously?? Yea do it now and tag Emma in it. Ok. I take out my phone and start to type.

Ok so I never write anything like this on my wall for everyone to see but I feel like this time it needs said. I want to thank all you fans who are supportive of me and my new relationship with Emma. I really appreciate each and everyone of you and cant thank you enough for all the love and support use have given me over these past few years. But what I really want to talk about is the not so nice and supportive comments on my new relationship. For those of you who dont support us I want to let use no that use dont no Emma. She is one amazing woman and I have never meet someone like her before in my life. It upsets me that use would judge someone before use have even got to no her and if use no me use will no that that is something I can not stand. Yes there is a few years difference between us yes we live very far away and yes she isn't famous or anything like that but I do not care I love Emma for who she is and how she makes me feel. She has the biggest heart ever and would do anything for anyone and she has made me the happiest man alive just by being with her. So for those of you who dont agree with my relationship can just unfollow me. I will not stand for negative comment on my relationship from people that dont really no me or Emma.

I show it to Ben before I post it. Yea that's good your not being nasty or anything so it shouldn't cause problems. I post it to my Instagram after tagging Emma in it so she can see it and wait to see who has anything to say about that. So far all the comments are good ones people saying stuff like I'm rite for standing up for my relationship that no one has a rite to say things like that. I put my phone down and lift my beer I'm just about to talk to ben when my phone goes off it's a messages from Emma.

E- Noah I cant put into words just how much I fking love you. I seen your post and im happy you stuck up for me the way you did but you really didn have to. I dont want you losing fans etc because of me. Xx

N- Do you really think I would let anyone say stuff like that about you and get away with it. You mean the world to me and I didn't want something like this to make you feel any different about our relationship. Xx

E- well to be honest I would of gave you an out and told you that you can do better because I no you can. At the same time I didn want to as I dont want to lose you. Xx

N- I'm not going anywhere. I love you babe. Xxx

E- I love you  xxx

Oh I have few appointments in the morning so please dont walk around in your boxers that is for my eyes only. Lol. Xx

N- ok thanks for the heads up. Xxx

E- Mwah. Night. Xx

N- night babe. Xx

So that was Emma she liked the post but also says I didn have to do it. She is a great girl I'm glad I met her Noah she makes you happy and I can see that. Thanks Ben she really does I dont think I have been this happy ever. Its weird to though as we haven't known each other that long but at the same time I feel like I have known her for years. She is still trying to get threw what happened in her past and I will try help her as much as I can but I can see myself that she is getting there. She's a strong amazing woman she has been threw so much and she still gets on with her life the best she can for her kids.  I can see how much she loves her kids Noah there is nothing more amazing than the bond between mother and child I see it with my wife and it makes me love her all the more. Do you want loads Noah? Yea of course at some point in my life but not rite now me and Emma have only started dating. So you want them with Emma then?? Well who else am I in a relationship with? No I mean do you see her in your future?? I pause for a minute to think. Do I see Emma in my future?? Yes of course I do that's why I turn to Ben and I say. Yes I do. Ben smiles and we go back to watching some TV. I would love nothing more than to spent my life with Emma people would say to me come on man use have only just meet your still young dont get into anything too serious not yet. But you no what they dont no me well enough to no I would rather be in a committed relationship than single or playing the field that's just who I am and I have always been. So lets hope that's this is it for me that Emma is the one cause to tell you the truth the way I feel about her makes me think she is.

We both stay there for another hour or so when I decided I was going to head up to bed. Hey man I'm going to head to bed. Yea me to actually long trip tomorrow. Ben gets up and so do I I turn everything off and make sure all is locked up then head upstairs and into Emma's room she is sound asleep in a ball she looks so peaceful so I go quietly into the bathroom get washed undress and head to bed in my boxers. Jump into bed and put my arm around Emma. She instantly cuddles into me kisses my arm mumbles something I cant make out and goes back to sleep. I laugh a little kiss the top of her head and whisper. Goodnight baby I fall asleep after that.

Sorry it took so long to out this chapter up I had started it and forgot to finish it. Let me no what you all think. I have in my head were I want this to go but I would like your all opinions. Thanks guys.