lost chemisty

I miss you

My blood begins to boil as I stare at my brother's back,why is he talking to the same person he told me not to be talking too
What the hell is going on?

I'm still in Alex's embrace but my eyes are far away from focused on him.I watch as my brother and Aaron are in a heated conversation I know because both of their hands are up in the air and the way they are glaring at each other.
I will be asking my brother about this later.

"Hey babe I'm going to head up too the bathroom real quick then I'm going to go find Carmen and wish her a happy birthday I'll be back in about 10 minutes or so." I give him a quick peck as he squeezes my side and kisses my forehead.

I turn on my heel and weave and bob around drunk teens and their drunken dance moves as I laugh mentally in my head at how some of these kids are dancing.

I walk up the long staircase really happy I haven't drunk anything yet or I would barely be able to walk up these stairs.

After I finish using the bathroom I wash my hands and look up in the mirror and fix my hair and make sure I'm decent before I walk out of the bathroom.I'm just about to head towards the staircase before a hand grabs my arm and pulls me into a dark room.

What the hell man.. If some drunk disgusting jerk thinks he's going to get lucky tonight,he's about to be in for a Rude awakening. Just as I'm about to open a can of whoop a** on this jerk I recognize the smell of his favorite after shave and Cologne I'm shocked that its him out of all people.

"Aaron?"

"Yea its me- um- i- I'm sorry if I scared you I wasn't trying to I just wanted to get you alone. Alex hasn't let go of you all night so when I saw you come up here I followed... Not in a creep way either" By now the light is on and I can see a tint of red on Aarons cheeks as he's looking everywhere in the room but in my face.

"What do you want from me Aaron, what could we possibly have to talk about huh? You want to talk?

Okay lets talk then,do you want to talk about how when you left me you broke me.. Tore me down and you left me without a second thought.. I was in such a dark place Aaron" I'm so heated as I basically yell these words at Aaron.All my emotions and feelings that I've kept at bay for these past 2 years are finally exploding after all this time.

"Aaron" my voice is way calmer as i take a breath in and slowly breathe out.Aaron looks up at me his eyes are red and his face is flushed, his hands are in fists right now. I haven't seen this side to Aaron in a long time, and its sort of a relief to know that there is a part of him that is still there after these 2 years.
His sensitive side.

It was always the "bad ass Aaron" who everyone was afraid of, if you weren't spoken to by him then you didn't speak to him.

What made him choose me that day at McDonald's when we were 15 I don't know but I miss having him in my life.

"Aaron" I repeat"when you left I didn't have a clue why or what I had done to drive you away but I hated myself for it, I did" my eyes start to water as I think back to those days that seemed not so long ago.

I notice Aaron is walking over to me in huge steps from where he was standing and then cups my face in his hands. His deep green eyes looking into mine as if he's trying to predict what I'm going to say next.
"Tell me what happened i- I need to know" he shuts its eyes for a brief moment before he graces me with opening his eyes once again as he stares down at me.

"I tried to kill myself the day that you left me, after-well you know" I say my throat dry and as I swallow I feel a lump in my throat indicating to me that I'm about t o cry.
"What!" Aaron yells out at me his eyes darker than they already are,he takes my hands in his and that's all I need before I break down and start crying like a 5 year old.

"Amari I am so so so so sorry, i-i never knew you would even think about doing something like that, I just had to leave I couldn't deal with myself I hated my self after what happened and I couldn't bear to see you hurt, so I did the first thing that came to mind. I ran."

Tears. He's actually crying and I've never seen him cry ever.

"Why did you come back then, if it was too much for you? Why come back knowing that I'm going to be here when you returned Aaron?" I ask him my mind is spinning right now and I feel like I'm going to pass out any minute.
"Because I missed you.""The answer came so softly that I almost missed it. My head snaps up to look at him. But his green orbs are already staring down at me.He takes his hands and plays with my curls before moving to my face to wipe my tears away. His eyes never leaving mine.

"W-what?" I ask my breath Picking up due to the way he's looking at me and how close he is I can spell the familar sent of what is Aaron. I would be lying if I said I haven't missed him. He was my first love, my first everything when I first saw him I already knew that he was going to be a trouble maker but he was my trouble maker.

Aaron smiles down at me causing my heart to flutter he could always make me feel like this and he knew it too. "I ment what i said to you at the mall the day i saw you, you really are as beautiful as i remember you but i can see you've grown up some too and it makes you all the more insanely  beautiful and I couldn't be more in love with you than the first day I saw you at McDonald's" he says his hands are behind my neck as he plays with my curls in the back of my head making me weak in the knees as he does so.

"I've missed you so much amari I really have and I'm so sorry about that night it was the biggest mistake of life can you please give me another chance to show you that I've grown up that I'm not the same little boy who left 2 years ago."

"Aaron i-' but before I could finish my sentence the door is opened and there stands my brother and Alex. Both of their eyes meet mine and then shifts over to Aaron who by the way is still close to me holding my hands up to his chest.
God why do you like to see me in situations like this?

I quickly push Aaron away and I notice  hurt flash in his eyes before he covers it up faster than it came.

"Why are you on my girlfriend didn't I tell you to stay away from her?" Alex spits at Aaron with a glare that could make a grown man pee himself. Aaron turns too look at Alex and I can see the wheels turning in his head but his smile falls from his face and he brushes past Alex and my brother.
Yup I'm in trouble.
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*shyly waving*Hey guys sorry I haven't updated in a while but I love reading more than y'all know lol.But I made this chap long and I really like it hopefully y'all do too.
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-jaz