✔︎ fallen ; my inner demons

12 ✯ deeply

❝Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.❞ -Lao Tsu

I wasn't sure about anything anymore. After the incident where Asch got mad at me outside the pizza place, I've been treated like I don't exist. The Prince simply ignored me, completely avoiding me when he saw me on the other side of the room. I don't know if he had a lasting grudge, but he had influenced everyone else with him. Everyone would look at me, then seem to look through me. I was concerned as to whether I was actually see-through, or if it was actually them being assholes. It was the latter.

Something else that ticked me off was that they had not taken my advice when I said that playing with someone's feelings and suddenly wanting to marry Ava was unconventional and immature. It was unfair to Ava, as someone that doesn't enjoy the idea of love, to pursue her for a purpose and not for actual feeling. Sure, in a sense I was angered and a little bit jealous that I wasn't the one that was being chased around, being called a princess and getting cute suitors. I admit that fact. But that doesn't justify their actions.

"Princess Ava!" Leif screeched, jumping over furniture and leaping across the floorboards as he sprinted through the living room, dashing for Ava's locked bedroom door.

I shuddered, thinking about how Leif had once said that to me. Now he was gone, like a wisp of mist, fading into the air, dissolving into the invisibility and beyond my reach. I missed them. I actually somewhat missed that rambunctious bunch.

But they were just interested in Ava. I mean, if they really have strong feelings for her — which I heavily doubted — it's not my place to stop them. They did have the freedom to pursue whatever they wanted. In all honesty, I wanted to turn my back, put my hands over my ears and hide somewhere, to try and not think about what was happening. I must not give in to them, and show weakness to Asch, or he'll deem me as even more useless than he already think I am. I have to stay strong, no matter how much I want to talk to them or laugh with them, and chuckle at their antics.

It's not my turn yet, is it? It's like I'm playing Uno with life, where everybody decides to stop me whenever it's my turn, and skip me.

It's alright, I guess. It's not like I should've expected any more from a bunch of demons. They're portrayed as heartless creatures in the fairy tales, evil and malicious, usually the ones that get the main character in trouble. Even more so, they are void of any sort of emotion, or happiness, or love.

At least that's what a lot of my anime and novels tell me. I may or may not have been recently watching Demon Slayer, watching the plot line unfold with the demons and the demon slayers. I know Nezuko is an amazing character with good traits and an astonishing personality but still, I didn't expect demons in real life. No one expected it, and I couldn't help but imagine what would go down if they were exposed. Maybe they would be hunted, like the witches, and even used for some sort of psycho experiment.

I didn't understand at all why Ava couldn't get boys to like her in high school, because she was extremely pretty in every sort of imaginable way. And I guess the daemos falling head over heels for her now is her second chance at the romance she couldn't achieve in high school. She did have Jake, but let's just pretend he doesn't exist, I don't think she's interested in him anyway.

In another sense, it might be my fault. Maybe I've just sunken too deep into the hellhole that is friendship with these demons. What am I even kidding, we're different species entirely. I've fallen way too deep into these unknown waters and depths of my own brain, trapped inside and never escaping, too deep into all this weirdness that has been going on. I guess this is life, in a short little box of pain.

It's like a busy highway, and you're in a car. Your goal is to just speed along that highway until you reach the end. Along the way, you'll meet other drivers, other cars. And at the same time, your car might crash.

And maybe they've just crashed mine.

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Heyo guys it's your friendo hurling a barrage of negativity on the storyline :3 this is just a small part of the full story I'm planning in my head, so I hope y'all enjoy this chapter of Fallen! Also: THANK YOU GUYS FOR GETTING THIS STORY TO 3K oml I am so happy TwT
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edit: 03.10.2021
word count: 855 words
i'm going to start to edit a lot more storyline parts now, since we're getting into the stranger portions of my story, at least that's my opinion on it ahaha, but please enjoy!!