•Taj
"Wtf was that man!?"
Jahron better get the fuck out my face with all that yelling.
"I don't recall what you're talking about Jahron".
I'm honestly not about to sit here and entertain this bullshit, not in my own home at that.
Since we've been back at my apartment from the studio, all he's done is question what happened earlier. The car ride here was so full of tension but I still refrained from talking, not really seeing the point in giving a fuck anymore.
He's single....cool. I wasn't about to keep putting myself out there like I was the only one with the memories of our past.
"Taj don't act clueless, so you really gone be petty right now?".
I knew he peeped I was becoming even more irritated by the look on my face from the constant questioning.
"Who's being petty? I'm a grown ass woman who damn sure doesn't have any reason to be petty. If anything check yourself, act your age not your shoe size, in this case your dick size. Fuck out my face Jah, please miss me with that shit".
I was becoming heated and I really needed him to back up with the extra shit at the moment. I never took anyone calling me petty or anything I felt was coming at my character because I've always been about mines, no bullshit attached.
"Who I am even speaking to right now dawg!? What Taj? What! ? Tell me what have I done to make you so mad and basically fucking diss me in your petty ass freestyle in front of them niggas at that too!?" he shouted now in my face completely, more so looking down at me due to our slight height differences.
"Shit ain't petty when its your music though! FUCK YOU JAHRON! I'M TIRED OF THIS SHIT! I'M TIRED OF HOLDING A NIGGA DOWN THAT WILL NEVER DO THE SAME FOR ME, EVEN ON MY WORST DAY! FUCK YOU! I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU SOMETIMES! YOU JUST EXPECTING ME TO ALWAYS BE HERE WHENEVER YOU NEED TO BUST A NUT OR VENT, WELL GET THAT SHIT OUT OF YOUR HEAD CAUSE I'M FED UP. DON'T LOVE ME FOR WHAT YOU WANT, LOVE ME FOR WHAT YOU NEED!".
I stormed over to the door and calmly opened it giving him a look to get out and that I meant it.
Being my best and very all for a person for so long drove me off the deep end, and then the end result is he'd never love me again like he used to and it feels like my time was wasted. It's a bittersweet realization. It made me become even more closed off, and eventually all the bullshit just wasn't tolerable anymore.
"T I'm sorry, I just don't feel the same anymore" he whispered, staring at me with hurt in his eyes.
I just shook my head.
"Then goodbye Jahron".
He left.
I cried.
~Short but only the beginning! ^-^.
#PNDIsBae♥ |Kat|
