Don't Let Me Go

Chapter 11

Chapter 11: Silah      

I can't even remember seeing Cecil so mad. But as I closed the door to my class room and made my way to my seat, I had other things to think about. Like, Why did Caden take this sudden interest in me? What made me so damn special? Why couldn't he just find someone else... Even I know what I total lie that was. I couldn't help but feel tingles where he touched me. Or when he whispered against my skin and my whole body trembled. Just the fact that I fit so perfectly against his body... It was weird. I'd had boyfriends before. But non of them ever looked at me how Caden looked at me... And now I couldn't be with him... Even if I wanted to. But I couldn't do that to Cecil. He was my brother and I would do anything to keep him happy... Right? Right.    

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I sat at home, alone, twirling my spoon in my coffee as I thought to myself. My homework laid out in front of me but I gave it hardly a glance. I guess I had too much on my mind to even consider keeping up my good student status.       

I checked the time, almost 6. Soon I'd have to go pick up Cecil at his lacrosse practice. I didn't want to see Caden. Because I knew that if I did, I wouldn't listen to Cecil. Maybe Doanna was right...? Could I like Caden? But he was such a bad person. Even if he did apologize... I grunted and pulled out my phone, dialing Doanna's number.      

"Helloooo." She answered after the third ring.      

"Do, We have a problem."       

"What? Are you okay? Did something happen to Cecil?" Doanna was suddenly worried. And I could just picture her pacing in her room or wherever she was.      

"Well.... Cecil is fine in a sense." I paused, trying to figure out how I could word this properly. "Okay, So Caden pulled me out of my second period and he found out about my parents... And he was being really comforting and then Cecil came busting down the hallway and told me I couldn't see Caden. Not that I ever was." I took a sip of my coffee and waited for her response.      

"Oh Sil.... Caden does like you. And he wants to be there for you. Cecil is just trying to look out for you..."      

"By telling me to stay away from him? This is probably the first person to ever actually known about my parents and not give me pity. He apologized for hurting Cecil cause I was pretty mad about that, but you should have heard the things he said to me...." I sighed. Oh how I wish this was easy and I didn't maybe possibly have feelings for Caden...      

"Look Silah. If you really do have feelings for Caden, because I'm guessing you might, you have to go and talk to Cecil. And I mean full on sit him down and tell him this. He's not going to be happy but he might understand... Oh I have to go." I heard talking in the background.      

"See ya Do...."       "Bye Sil! Love you!" She called before hanging up.      

I slid my phone back in my pockets and grabbed my car keys. I wasn't very happy to have to go and pick up Cecil. I still hadn't figured out a speech and I knew Caden would be there. He may even want to talk to me... I shook my head. God this is nonsense. I grabbed my jacket from beside me as I stood. I grumbled angrily as I stormed out the front door, practically jogging to my car. I slide into the leather interior and started her up. She purred to life underneath me and I started to drive.