How to be a good lad [ ziall ] { on hold }

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               Niall

I didn't sleep last night at all.

I still can't believe my Major kissed me.

Last time I checked it was against the rules and could put his status on the line if I said anything about the lip lock to anyone.

I wasn't stupid; I knew that even my friends counted as anyone.

But my journal didn't. It counted as an anything. Anything’s couldn't share what you told me, so, I used my journal at 4 in the morning

Journal,

Sorry for neglecting you since you got mailed here but I had nothing to write about... Up until now

You see, I got into a lot of trouble for skipping disciplinary classes, then swearing at two majors, giving one of them an order and disobeying.

How rebellious am I?

To be honest, I felt pretty proud of my bravery up until I wound in the middle of the field in only boxers on the wet and cold grass as the only junior to do 'chores'

My chore was to stay with Major Malik. It was weird, I can say that much. He treated me like a literal dog and gave me commands like 'sit' and 'stay'.

It was such bullshit. But, tonight was different. I just finished my chore of doing Major Malik's (Zayn's) bidding and I was telling him about my ex boyfriend, Calum.

He sat and listened but out of nowhere... He kissed me.

To tell the truth, it made my body burn. I burned in the best way possible. But I'm still confused. Why did he kiss me? Did he even mean to? Was he just messing with me?

Do I want him to kiss me again?

I'm not really sure I do

Niall. H 12/7/14

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I got up with everyone else since I didn't sleep, and, I walked out with my friends still pondering about the kiss from Zayn

We arrived on time thankfully, but I was unable to look at either of my Majors.

Now that I thought about it, the kiss was almost a scandal.

Zayn was with Josh, and Zayn kissed me when Josh wasn't around... That was cheating.

Every glance I used to see Zayn resulted in him watching me and in the end, I concentrated on his betrayed boyfriend, Major Devine.

He looked no different, though pissed off when we made eye contact.

It was clear he didn't know about Zayn and me kissing... Yet.

Zayn was bound to tell him at some point or another, hopefully not anytime soon though.

I just did as I was told, and wondered if getting into trouble could make Zayn back off

It was worth a shot right.

I knew I would commit suicide if I had to be Zayn's mutt again but I figured they wouldn't give me to Zayn again so it was all okay.

It wasn't even Major Malik's lesson, but that didn't stop me from complaining to Louis about how awful being a mutt was

"He was the fucking worst" I whined

"I can't imagine being a bus boy is all that nice" Louis said quietly

"He's such an arsehole" I said quite loudly "Jesus, he pet me like an actual dog, how fucked up is-"