How to be a good lad [ ziall ] { on hold }

t w e n t y o n e

Niall yawned

"Sleep..." I whispered

He collapsed onto my bed and it was lights out.

I'd put sleeping pills in his food and he'd taken four which mean he'd be out for ages.

I tugged the duvet off him and I dipped my tongue into his belly button again, placing a soft kiss to his hip as I then lapped my tongue over it, my eyes opening slightly.

I stopped and sat up, looking at the calm and content look on his features.

What am I doing?

He was still out cold but what I wanted to do... that wasn't something I should be doing.

"I'm so sorry" I whispered

This was getting out of hand.

My need for Niall was becoming creepy

I wiped my traces from him and went to rid him from my mouth.

He's in love with someone... And all I want to do is have sex with him.

I shook my head at my reflection

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I spoke to my reflected self "you drugged the sweetest lad on campus. He might be a handful but he's just a boy... He's just an innocent boy"

I washed my face with cold water and then dried it off.

Unable to just sleep without apologising maybe or even just... I don't know.

I wandered back to the bed and pulled the covers up, petting his hair

"Goodnight, Niall" I whispered

I pushed back his fringe and kissed his forehead, soft murmurs came from his lips as I walked away.

I took the red couch and got a new blanket, then slept there for the night

The one chance I had to fuck Niall I was letting slip away by the second.

But I didn't care. I couldn't do that to him... I'm surprised I even had the courage to put sleeping pills in his food.

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When I woke up, Niall stood in front the couch in his boxers

"N-Niall?" He suddenly went blurry

"Why'd you sleep on the couch?" his answer was flat and more of a statement really

"Because, we both know what happened the last time we shared a bed" I closed my eyes, ashamed

"Have you done it to your boyfriend too, or did you only drug me?"

"I didn't drug you" I murmured "all I did was give you sleeping pills"

"Why"

"I was hoping that if I gave you sleeping pills you'd fall asleep earlier so I wouldn't have to deal with this bullshit" I sat up, now annoyed by his tone "but I guess I was wrong"

"Fuck you"

He went to turn around, but I grabbed his wrist and stood up, tugging him to me hard.

He collided with my bare chest, gasping as his hands landed flat on my torso

I put my arms around him and hugged him... Fuck, he’s cold.

"I'm sorry" I mumbled, closing my eyes as I rest my cheek against the top of his head "I just woke up... I'm not a morning person"

He struggled but sighed annoyed when I didn't let go

"You can let go"

"Not till you hug me back"