The Internship

Chapter Six

I walked into work the next day to find Kirstie on the phone. I settled on waving instead of my normal good morning. Then, I took a deep breath before opening the door to Mitch's office.

"Good morning," I said.

He didn't look up or say anything and I felt panic settle into my stomach. He continued typing for what felt like an eternity and I just stood there.

He finally looked up and gave me a rushed and rehearsed smile. "Hey. We're spending a lot of time with Kevin today. You haven't met him but he's amazing and you'll love him, he's the sweetest guy in the world. And then we're going over funding and other stuff for Ryan's short film. He wants to begin filming by next week."

Mitch was saying the same general stuff as always, but completely different at the same time. His walls were tall and strong and his eyes were guarded. He just seemed distant.

"Um yeah okay, sounds good." I tried to stay normal. I sure as hell wasn't going to bring up last night if he wasn't.

"Alright let me send one more email and then we can go," he said.

I pulled out my laptop and waited for him. He finished and we made our way down the hallway. He was completely silent the whole time. He wasn't talking about last night, yet at the same time he was. It was like by being silent, he was yelling at me for treating him like a piece of glass. I felt horrible. I thought my intentions were good but I fucked up.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even realize that we'd reached one of the auditoriums. A man sat on a chair on the stage while playing around on his cello in order to get ready. He looked up when he saw us coming.

"Mitch!" He called before engulfing him into a hug. "I've missed you! You never come to this floor anymore. Mr. Important Because He's the Boss," Kevin said while poking Mitch's chest, after they'd pulled away from their hug.

"I know, I want to but I don't have time anymore."

"Hey it's okay, your dad has a lot for you to do," Kevin said kindly.

Mitch slightly cringed at the mention of his father. It happened so fast that only someone who was looking for it would've noticed.

"Enough chit chat, let's see what you've got Kev!" Mitch called as he pushed Kevin onto the stage.

Kevin turned around. "Hey no fair! Not until I meet Mr. Blonde."

He hopped down from the stage and put his hand out.

"Kevin Olusola."

"Scott Hoying," I said as I shook his hand.

"Do you know anything about cellos, Scott?"

"No sorry."

"It's fine, I always love having a new pair of ears!"

"Okay Kev, really it's time to play." Mitch said.

"Alright mom. I'm going."

Mitch and I took our seats and Kevin began to play.

"Holy motherfucking shit," I said under my breath. Amazing didn't even begin to cover what he was. He became lost in the music almost instantly and I envied his talent. And soon, I too became lost in the music. I couldn't even hide my disappointment when it was over.

Mitch leaned over and whispered into my ear. "He's amazing isn't he?"

I was terrified that he could hear my heart beating out of my chest. This boy made me so nervous, but in the best way possible. "Yeah he's absolutely good." The words tumbled out of my mouth and I felt like I'd faceplanted.

Mitch laughed. "Are you okay? That made no sense."

"Yeah it's early, I didn't sleep well last night." And man was that true. I stayed up all night crying, worrying, and drowing in guilt. I was surprised that Mitch was even talking to me after what I did.

He nodded. "Yeah me too." I wondered if that meant he was in the same position as I was or if he was fucking a dirty slut.

"I've been working on You Raise Me Up by Josh Grobran as well," Kevin said, snapping me out of my thoughts. "I can play that too."

"Yes please," Mitch and I said in unison. We looked at each other and gave real, genuine smiles. It warmed my heart and made some of my guilt disappear.

"It's missing something," Mitch said after Kevin had finished You Raise Me Up. "It's amazing, don't get me wrong, but I feel like you need vocals."

"Okay. Anything to make it better," Kevin said.

"Josh Groban has a deep voice so who would--- Avi!" Mitch yelled cutting himself off. "That should be perfect. I'll talk to Avi and let you know by the end of today. If I like it maybe you can perform it at the Cancer Research's event. But amazing as always Kurvy." Mitch hugged him again. "You never cease to amaze me."

"Aw Mitchy. I know you can't see it, but I'm blushing," Kevin said.

Mitch and I began laughing as we gathered our things. "Bye Kevin," I said.

"Bye Scott, it was awesome to meet you!"

"You too!"

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"One of my pet peeves is when someone brings up something awkward that has happened and makes it more awkward," Mitch said after another long day. I had been packing my stuff but now I stopped because shit this couldn't be good. "I'm going to do it anyways because the tension between us is suffocating."

If only it was sexual tension.

I stood there facing Mitch, preparing myself for the bullet that was about to hit.

"I'm not mad at you. I'm just frustrated. You're doing sweet things that I'm not used to and I don't know how to deal with it, so I don't. I guess that's the same as me wanting to let you in, so instead I shut you out. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I finally give up. Game over. I've been trying, and it may not seem like it to you, but I have. This is a lot harder for me then you think. So I'm done trying. I have Kirstie and this job and maybe if you're feeling sweet, you as a friend. But I'm done, completely. You can try to change my mind if you want, but my walls are up now. I'm sorry that I couldn't be enough."

I grabbed my stuff and walked out of Mitch's office. I didn't say a word, his "speech" had said it all. We (and whatever "we" were) are over.

"So good riddance!" I yelled out into my empty car as I drove home. "I don't need you either! Fuck you Mitch Grassi, I hate you! It's not my fucking fault that you're unstable and I was trying to help! I give up too!"

A Letter That He'll Never Read

I know why they name hurricanes after people. You've been in my life for all of 3 seconds and my world has been completely flipped upside down. And I say that I hate you but who the hell am I kidding. And it hurts because I already miss you and I want you and I need you BUT YOU WERE NEVER EVEN MINE. So here I am at 2:04am with tearstained cheeks, homesick for arms that don't even want to hold me.

A/N This is boring and a filler but be patient with me because I was half awake when I wrote this. "A Letter That He'll Never Read" is something that Scott will write for Mitch. They won't be in every chapter but when they are they will be in the beginning or end. Please leave your feedback on it or just for the chapter in general. Thanks I love you all!