Our Memeories

Chapter 3

He didn't know how lost I felt without him. He will never know. Our relationship Is always on/off. And I hate it. One minute he loves me the next he never wants to speak to me. It confuses the hell outta me. Every night without him I would pretend he was next to me just to get me to sleep. He doesn't know I sing or write songs. Nobody knows. I write songs about my feeling. I found a song on the laptop in my room that described all of my feelings in the scorch without thomas. Here it is:

Every night I dream your still here, close by my side so perfectly clear, when I awake you disappear back to the shadows with all I hold dear.

It's funny how it describes my entire night on a daily basis spent without him. Today was one of those days he wouldn't talk to me. At night he would come and we would talk, and then of course sleep. duh. I think about yesterday when he splashed icy cold water down my back. It was so cold, but it felt good. Like him.

Thomas walks into the room and takes his dirty boots off. "Excuse me but I don't want dirt on my carpet" I say sarcastically. "Your carpet" he says with a slight grin creeping up his face. He sighs and places the boots outside of the doorway. I nod my head in approval and turn back to thomas. He sits down next to me. He puts his arm around my hips and sighs. "Rough?" I asks. I nod my head and put my head on his shoulder, he usually was never like this, calm, sweet, being the Thomas he used to be. he plants a quick kiss on my cheek and gets up. "Where are you going?" to be honest I didn't want him to leave me, ever again. "I'm going to bring dinner up" he says. I agree and five minutes later is Thomas with a tray full of food.

After we are we decided to take a walk down the meadow. It was beautiful. I laid down in a patch of flowers and took a deep breath of the overpowering scent of daisies. Thomas decided to lay next to me. He decided to wrap is arms around me in a protective way, I could stay here forever.