Pastel Palette ㅡ Taekook

eighty-four.

From: minyg@gmail.com

To: kimtae@gmail.com

Subject: 'Til I see you again.

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Who would've thought, that even after years of being practically attached to the hip, a moment will come, that I have to finally set you free?

I remember seeing you for the very first time when we were kids. You were literally shaking because you and Hoseok got soaked from the heavy rain fall. You didn't have anything on to protect you from the cold and you were so small- barely past my hip and thank God my parents saw you and took you in.

When the two of you were dry and bundled up with a thick duvet in front of the furnace, you looked at me with those big and curious eyes of yours- obviously afraid that I will do something to hurt you.

You were such a cry-baby, a very sensitive kid. You would cry whenever Hoseok left your side just to go to the bathroom or help my parents with the chores.

It was safe to say that you hated me at first. You never really wanted to do anything with me, but I felt the exact opposite.

I wanted to protect you, and I didn't know why I felt the urge to do so. I was a kid, like you and Hoseok, but it was as if you were a magnet. You attracted me- pulled me towards you every single day, and despite the slow pace, you finally warmed up to me.

The moment you first called me "Yoonie", I instantly knew I was a goner.

Growing up with you and Hoseok was the best thing that ever happened. I spent my time mostly in school, but I was always so eager to go home because you were there to wait for me. You always waited, so I promised myself that when the time comes, it will be my turn to wait for you.

Seeing you grow in front of my eyes felt like watching a butterfly break free from its cocoon. You've grown so beautifully that even my feelings started growing along with you, too. I was in denial, but it was not after you got your very first confession that I realized how fucking in love I am with you.

It was before entering college that I had a talk with my mom. Did you know? I cried in front of her because I couldn't take it anymore.

The feeling of having this unrequited love for my best friend felt so heavy in my chest. It was like I was carrying the whole universe with me.

("Mom, I don't know what to do."

"Oh, baby, what happened? Tell me."

"It hurts. Hurts so much."

"Yoongi-ah, is this about someone you like?"

"It's Taehyung."

"Baby..."

"Mom, I love him. I'm in love with him.")

When you stepped in to college, you and Hoseok lived with me, before Hoseok decided to go out of the country to pursue his dream of becoming a dancer.