DIYAM

The Broken Heart

Inna ta saka na zagaya na gaishe da mutanen gidan, kuma kowa naje sai ta yi comment akan girman da nayi, ni kuma sam banga wani girma da nayi ba na dai san cewa kirjina ya kara cika amma bayan shi ban kara komai ba. Ina dawowa dakin Inna na tarar an aiko min da abinci kala kala daga gurin Hajiya Babba, Inna tace "da yake surukar ta tazo shine ta aiko mata da abinci, amma mu yaushe rabon da muga kwano daga dakinta" ni dai bance komai ba na fara bubbuda flasks ina zaben abinda zanci, na samu wani farfesun kaji na ja gefe na fara ci. Ina cikin ci Hajiya Yalwati ta shigo, ta kalli lodin abincin tace "hmmm. Ana cewa babu kudi bayan kudin suna can a inda aka ajiye su" Inna tayi dariya tace "ke kam ba kya rabo da bakar magana".

A dakin Inna na wuni, sai da yamma ta tura ni inje in gaida Alhaji, kuma in shiga gidan Kawu Isa suma in gaishe su. Sai a lokacin na fahimci cewa ashe Alhaji Babba bashi da lafiya yana kwance. Ina dawowa sai ga sako dafa Hajiya Babba wai inje an gyara min daki a gurinta inje in sauka a can. Naki zuwa nace ace mata na gode amma a gurin Inna zan zauna, sai nayi sa'a kuma Innar bata matsamin in tafi din ba.

Da daddare Inna take gaya min cewa gobe ne zata fita daga takaba, ashe shine dalilin da yasa aka dauko ni. Sai na tambayeta "Mama zata zo goben?" Inna tace "inajin zata zo, wani abun ne?" Nace "dama wata tambaya nake so inyi mata" ta zauna a kusa dani tace "tambayar me fa?" Sai na fara jujjuya hannuna ina feeling uncomfortable, ni ban saba irin wannan maganar da Inna ba dama Ummah ce da sauki.

Sai data sake tambayata sannan nace "so na ke inji, wai dama in mutum yayi aure sai ya daina period? Dama matan aure basayi?" Sai ta tashi ta bude wardrobe kamar mai dauko wani abu, ta jingina kanta da kofar tace "yaushe rabon da kiyi?" Nace "tun kafin.....tun kafin biki" tace "wata uku kenan ko?" Na ce "eh" tace "matan aure sunayi Diyam, sai dai in matar aure tana da ciki ne bata yi" naji kaina ya kulle nace "ciki?" Sai kawai ta juyo tana kallo na, na dan yi shiru ina tunanin kalmar ciki sai kuma lokaci daya naji tamkar an ciro zuciyata an buga ta da kasa ta tarwatse.

Nayi saurin rike kirjina na zamo daga kan gadon na fado kasa, a hankali na fara kiran innalillahi wa inna ilaihir rajiun, Inna ta taho da sauri ta rike ni tana kokarin daga ni amma na dunkule a guri daya danji nake yi tamkar idan na mike zuciyata zata fado daga kirjina. Amma hawaye yaki zuwa idona, kalmar ciki ce kawai take yawo a kaina, wai ciki nake dashi ni Diyam kuma cikin ma wai na Saghir wannan wacce irin jarabawa ce, wannan wacce irin rayuwa ce. Har yanzu banyi accepting Saghir a matsayin miji na ba ballantana kuma in karbe shi a matsayin uban yayana.

Inna ta rike ni tana cewa "haba Diyam, menene hakan kuma daga maganar ciki? Ciki ai kyautar Allah ne in aka same shi murna ya kamata ayi a kuma godewa Allah" sai na kifa kaina a jikinta ina jan numfashi da kyar. Na rufe ido na ina tunano fuskar Sadauki. Wannan cikin tamkar yayi sealing aurena da Saghir ne, tamkar ya tabbatar da rabuwa ta da Sadauki kenan.

Ranar yadda naga rana haka naga dare. Ina jin ko lokacin da aka daura min aure da Saghir ban shiga irin wannan tashin hankalin ba. Sai bayan nayi Sallar asuba sannan nayi bacci dan haka har mutane suka fara zuwa yiwa Inna gaisuwa da kuma taya ta murnar fita daga takaba ban tashi ba, daga baya ma dana farka sai na yi kwanciya ta har saida naji muryar Mama sannan na tashi na gaisheta. Ta bini da kallo kamar mai accessing dina, wannan yasa na koma na kwanta na lulluba dan ji nake yi kamar duk wanda ya ganni yana iya hango cikin jikina.

Ina kwance Mama ta shigo tace "Diyam taso ki raka ni unguwa" da sauri na mike ina straightening hijab dina dan ba karamin gajiya nayi da gidan da duk mutanen da ke cikinsa ba. Muna fita muka shiga motar da tazo da ita, Mukhtar yana ja muka tafi sai na gan mu munzo wani asibiti, naji gabana ya fadi ina tuna ranar da aka kaini asibiti naga gawar Baffa, ranar da rayuwata ta tarwatse.

Na tambayeta "Mama waye bashi da lafiya?" Tace "ba kowa, ke na kawo ki ga likita" sai na sunkuyar da kaina a raina ina cewa Inna ta gaya mata kenan. Da yake asibitin kudi ne dan haka muna zuwa aka dauki jini na for a confirmation test, mu ka zauna jira sai kuma aka kira mu dakin likita, muka shiga suka gaisa da Mama sannan nima na gaishe shi ya dauko result din yana kallona yace "Halima Usman Kollere?" Na gyada masa kai, yace "how old are you?" Nace "14" sai naji kalmar 14 din tana burning a kirjina.