-jahseh's pov-
im obviously not going to take her money so I put it on the table, got my keys and headed out the door
i decided to go to walmart
i connected the aux to my phone and played lil uzi
•at walmart•
i went into the toy isle and saw a whole bunch of dolls, princess dresses, slime etc..
i went into another isle and saw hella nerf guns
i grabbed the biggest one that has a lot of bullets and looked like it would be fun
i went to go pay
"find what your looking for?" the cashier said
"yeah, thanks" he scanned the toy
"fourteen dollars and twenty four cents"
i gave him the money "keep the change"
i grabbed the nerf gun
"don't want your receipt?" he asked
"naw i'm fine. thanks brother" i said before walking out the store
- - -
once i got to the house i got out the car and made sure to not bring the nerf gun
destiny's car isn't here so it's just me for now
i walked to the door, unlocked it and got in
i went upstairs into our room and saw that the bed wasn't made and it was kind of messy because of me
i did the bed and cleaned up everything
kill yourself
she doesn't love you
your worthless
die die die!
i punched a whole in the wall
"SHUT UP" i yelled
"shut up" i said while crying on the floor
"just please just shut up"
thoughts consume my mind
i silently screamed
my face turned red
i was hot
sad
"im home!" destiny yelled from downstairs along with the sound of a door closing
i wiped my tears and ran down the stairs to her
"you okay?" she asked when she saw me
"yeah just tired from running" i lied
"where's little one?" i asked
"right behind you"
i turned around
"rawr!" ace jumped up trying to scare me
i jumped up "woah you scared me"
he laughed
i picked him up, threw him in the air and caught him
"can we play video games?" he asked jumping up and down
"yeah of course buddy" i said going to set up the game
destiny smiled
- - -
"you cheated!" he yelled
"wha- how?"
"because your supposed to use that gun and- whatever" he said
i laughed
"your pretty good for a 6 year old" i said
"your pretty bad for a 20 year old" he replied
i laughed
"haha funny" i said sarcastically
"you play, i'll be back ima go check on your sister" i put the control down
"okay"
i went upstairs into our room
she was on the floor looking up at the ceiling
"jah" she looked at me
"yeah?"
"what's this?" she moved and the whole i punched in the wall earlier revealed
"it's n-"
"jah i know you were depressed when i left but now i'm back and this is permanent. i'm not leaving jah"
"i just don't know why your still sad" she said
"i can't loose you again"
"your not g-"
"you left because of me, because you couldn't deal with me, all the stress, all the sadness was because of me. everything was because of me."
"i'm the reason you left." i felt my heart dropped when i said that
"i don't want to loose you again, i can't. i need you destiny, i need you."
"i keep on thinking that i'm going to loose you again, that your gonna leave and i don't want that to happen. i can't let that happen" i said
"baby your not gonna loose me. you never did"
"i just needed a break and it wasn't because of you, it was because of family, friends, just people in general. it wasn't you"
"im here okay? forever" she said
"promise?" i asked
"promise" she said getting up and giving me a hug
"i love you okay jah. i love you so much" she said squeezing me
"i love you more" a tear fell down my cheek
she was crying too.
"im hungry, can we go out eat?!" ace yelled from downstairs
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