her fist collided with the small bathroom mirror in front of her. out of instant reflexes she instantly backed away as she watched all the glass fly everywhere.
destiny slipped on the soaked dark colored towel on the floor landing on her butt.
her mind was everywhere, she didn't know what to think or do besides react in the moment.
destiny got up and opened the broken mirror to see a lot of pill bottles placed nicely in order. none of them were prescribed pills in fact, all of them were drugs.
she only goes back to them at times like this, when she's feeling depressed, lonely or hurt. she knows it's not good for her but she just doesn't want to stop.
the first time she ever took a drug was when she was thirteen. it was on accident tho.
asking her mom "where are the pills to stop my headaches?" destiny's voice boomed throughout the house.
"in the mirror cabinet there's a white bottle" she replied back. destiny wasted no time to run to the bathroom and open the mirror.
a whole bunch of bottles full of pills covered the sight she was seeing. she grabbed the only white bottle in there, popped the cap open and took one pill out.
putting the bottle away she admired the pill she would be taking. it was long and squared shaped, it also had carved in letters but they were smushed.
not thinking much about it she closed the mirror and turned the water on. putting the weird looking pill in her mouth she put her mouth under the water and put her head back to swallow the pill
turning the water off she started to cough uncontrollably, maybe because it was too big?
i don't know.
i ended up passing out for hours and my mom was worried so she took me to the hospital. turns out i ended up taking a xanax that my mom supposedly 'forgot' she still had.
but that was years ago. i put the pill bottle away and tried to clean everything up because there was glass everywhere.
i picked up one of the glass and it cut my hand. a huge deep cut right in the middle.
i screamed out of pain "ah fucking damit!"
i quickly grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my hand "sss" i hissed in pain "this fucking hurts man" i applied a little pressure and blood started to drip on the floor
my phone started to go off meaning someone was calling me. i sighed and looked at the caller ID. it was my mom. i'm too busy cleaning this shit up and my hands are all bloody anyways. i'll call her back.
the door flung open and came in my little brother. he looked at all the glass on the floor and the blood, his eyes went wide.
"hey get out" i tried to close the door with my foot but he wouldn't move. "b get out now!" i shut the door
"jahseh!" he yelled for my boyfriend.
this fucking kid man. i locked the door and just sucked up the pain, cleaning all the glass up and putting it in the trash can.
banging was heard from the door.
"destiny open this damn door!" jahseh banged on it and tried to open it.
"hold on, damn!" i said
originally i was gonna take a shower so all my shower stuff is in here. i grabbed my clothes and put it on top of my covered hand.
i opened the door with my other hand and jahseh almost fell in. "what the fuck is you doing?" i said walking past him
"nah what the fuck are YOU doing?" he walked into the bathroom, scanning the whole thing as his eyes got wide
the bathroom is in our bedroom so i sat on the bed still applying pressure on my hand.
"yo!" he looked at the broken mirror
my brother came in, "baby go downstairs and watch cartoons in your room okay?" i told him he nodded and shut the door
"why- is this blood?" he asked looking at a spot i missed on the floor. he looked back at me and at the towel over my hand.
"what's that?" he asked walking out the bathroom and close to me, kneeling down in front of me. it's nothing" i lied. he took it upon himself to grab my arm in a quick but harsh manner. taking off the towel, the huge cut showed clearer than ever, blood still dripping.
he inhaled and exhaled deeply trying to be calm "what're you trying to do here?" he put his head down sighing deeply
he looked back up to me waiting for me to reply. "i accidentally cut myself with the glass" i admitted. "how did the glass break?" he asked. "man your asking too many questions" i said trying to get up but he yanked my arm back down
"let go of me!" i kicked him and got off the bed instantly falling. the pill is starting to kick in.
he got up and picked me up, sitting me on the bed
"why the fuck are you doing this to yourself destiny!" he yelled in my face "i'm not doing anything!" i said
"your not doing anything?" he said "your not doing anything" he repeated himself "your trying to FUCKING COMMIT SUICIDE DAMMIT!" he yelled again
i laughed a little tipping over to the other side of me. "you think this is a joke?" he asked sitting me straight again.
"I DONT WANT TO BE AT YOUR FUNERAL BURYING MY OWN GIRLFRIEND BECAUSE SHE TOOK HER OWN LIFE!" he slid his hands over his face meaning he was stressed out
i started to cry "s-stop yelling at me" i said
"your doing all of this while your brother is just downstairs in his room balling his eyes out worrying sick for his sister because he saw you with blood and glass everywhere" he said
"you know how it feels seeing my own girlfriend drugged up like this? you know what" he walked to the bathroom and grabbed the pill bottles, opening them
"n-n-n-no what're you doing?" i asked looking at the sight. "you'll see" he replied spilling the pills onto the counter, grabbing a spray bottle and crushing all of them with it.
he then proceeded to wipe all the crushed pills in the sink and turn the water on, washing all of it down the drain
"no! i need those!" i got up and ran to him "why did you do that!" i ran back to the bed and screamed "i hate you! i fucking hate you so much!"
once he was done he came back into the room and yelled "why the FUCK are you doing all this shit huh? you know we fucking love you!
i don't know why you keep doing stupid ass shit bruh!"
i got up off the bed and opened the door
"i'm leaving" i said walking out, "nah" he pulled me back in. "i'm never leaving your side til the day i die" he admitted
"then die!" i yelled "i'm so tired of your bullshit all day all week, all you do is yell yell yell! just leave me alone already!" i yelled
"you know what, imma call ski to pick your brother up cuz you acting a fool right now and he don't gotta he hearing all this shit" he pulled his phone out
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