Mark Me

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"Stop being a panicked gay Minnie."

"I am not being a pAnicked gay!" Jaemin turns to glare at his friend who just rolls his eyes.

"Yeah tell that to your voice crack just now." Donghyuk laughs and shakes his head.

Jaemin angrily follows his friend to the lunch room where their friends sat. Well, where Mark, Chenle, Jisung, and Renjun sat. Jamin plops himself next to Renjun and begins to eat his food angrily.

Renjun raises an eyebrow as his eating slows. "What's gotten into you?" He asks after swallowing his bite.

"Donghyuk is being an ass."

The aforementioned smiles cheekily.

"He always is honestly." Mark states nonchalantly. Resulting in a whack on his head from his boyfriend. "Ow! Hyuk!" He turned to glare at the boy next to him while rubbing his head.

"Donghyuk be nice to your boyfriend." Renjun sighs and shakes his head at his friends all being childish.

"Not until Mark does what he needs to do." Donghyuk says, folding his arms and giving Mark the 'look'.

Jaemin raises an eyebrow and puts down his fork. "What does Mark need to do?"

Mark sighs after losing his staring contest with Donghyuk. "Fine, I'll do it now." He turns to Jaemin. "We need to talk."

The pink haired boy gulps and nods, following Mark out of the cafeteria. They stop walking after turning down a hallway and under the stairwell.

"Look...Jaemin..." Mark looks down at his feet and rubs his head nervously.

"Y-yeah?" Jaemin, although trying to tell himself that Mark just wanted to talk, was still scared to the bone. The boy before him had hurt him horribly and he was still slightly scared of him.

"I...I'm not here to beat you up...don't worry..but could you maybe, like, be quiet while I say what I need to? If I don't say it now than I might never."

"Ok."

Mark looks up and gives Jaemin a small smile before taking a big breath. "I hurt you, I know I did. And I know I can't really do anything about it, but know that I am sorry. Any excuse I give you shouldn't justify what I did but I hurt you because....because I was hurt. You were Donghyuk's childhood friend, you knew him better than anyone. And when he left...it hurt so bad because I loved him. I still do but back then I couldn't do anything because he wasn't 18 yet. And I was hurt and sad and angry and the only way I could think of letting all that out was to hurt you, his best friend. That doesn't mean what I did was right, or justifiable but I hope that you could maybe understand where I was coming from. I'm not asking for forgiveness and I understand if I still scare you or if you hate me, I don't blame you. I just....I didn't know what else to do about my feelings. Jeno and Jisung have never been ones to talking about feelings or stuff, and I felt like I had no one to turn to. So I did the only thing I knew how to do, turn to violence. I don't know how Jeno got into it or what was going on between you, and I know Jisung would help you out and actually be decent towards you. I just...I'm so sorry Jaemin. I really really am." Mark's arm slowly falls to his side as he waits for Jaemin's response.

Jaemin stares at Mark for a moment before offering the older a warm smile. "It's ok Mark. I understand. I know how hard it must have been for you, to be away from your soulmate, even if you two weren't marked yet. It's true, you hurt me and I didn't know why...but It's ok Mark. Everyone has issues and although you still do scare me and you did cause me some trauma...I forgive you. It would be hard to hold a grudge against my best friend's boyfriend. It will take me some time to get used to you being around as a normal person and not a bully but it's ok. I don't like being mad at people if I can help it, and I don't like it when someone feels guilty knowing when I'm the cause of it. Thank you for apologizing Mark, it means a lot. And if you ever need help with Donghyuk, or if you need someone to talk to, you can come to me. I'm willing to listen. No one should use violence as an outlet for their feelings. I know what it's like to feel like you have no one, so if you ever feel that way, know that you have me. I forgive you Mark." Jaemin smiles warmly. Yes Mark hurt him, yes Mark scared him, and yes Mark was a horrible person to Jaemin. But Jaemin doesn't like seeing others sad or guilty, even when those other people caused him pain or trauma. And maybe being so forgiving and kind is a fault for Jaemin, but he couldn't help it. It was in his nature.