There is something missing that I cannot place my finger on.
My mind cannot wrap around this lost variable in the equation.
Perhaps that's fate telling me to forget about the problem.
It's maddening this lost piece, or am I just going crazy.
But I cannot just let this go.
I must find this lost piece.
I cannot explain it other than nothingness or a void in my head.
Was it ever a piece I owned or just something new to bring home?
No, it was definitely there before.
Place in the back of my mind only to be forgotten with time.
Its maddening, the static signal I get when looking for it.
An error message in my mind, until it's not anymore.
See the thing is it never was a lost piece but instead a piece I tried to forget.
This piece was you the one I never could forget.
In all truthfulness I never want to.
Your like my favorite book that I keep rereading.
Even with the ending as sad as it is, and I know it.
I cannot put you down.
You see there's a part of me in this version of you.
The only version I have left now.
This you is filled of the happiness and joy that was us.
It only exists in me now.
How I wish our ending was different but this unfortunate reality.
But life is no fairy tale you taught me this better than anyone else.
I do not regret having to get to know you.
I wish I could ease the ending and write a new one.
You this memory that will not fade.
You that haunts my dreams and my reality.
You...
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Thoughts of a Phantom
PoetryA collection of short pieces created by me about my life. They are styled in a similar format as spoken word poems. Some of the topics are a reference to my own experiences while some are a tribute to others who never got to tell their own. Possible...
