Anywhere But Here

Chapter 25

Chapter 25

I stared at the email in front of my eyes with absolute shock. Should I be surprised though? This is everything I had been working for my entire life so far, this is what my parents wanted and what I always had wanted. I wasn't sure if the feeling in my gut was excitement, nerves, or grief. I knew I couldn't reject the offer to Harvard, but something inside of me wanted to delete this email and pretend I never saw it. The other part of me wanted to run to Vic, and tell him how excited I was to finally have achieved this. If only months ago you had told me I would be in this position I would think you were insane, to be offered a scholarship to one of the biggest Ivy league universities out there sure it was always in the back of my mind, but to be debating on whether or not to take it? Not it a million years.

I wasn't even entirely sure why I was weary about it. It had been a few weeks since the incident and just as I had expected nothing has changed with Vic's condition. He still didn't remember his feelings towards me, which was weird considering he remembers our first date, he even said he remembers when he got me to start selling weed. I thought maybe he was lying about the whole 'forgotten feelings' bit, but if these last few weeks proved anything to me, Vic really doesn't give a fuck about me anymore. I went over to visit with Mike mostly considering Vic didn't care, and it was always heart breaking for me sit by while Vic would occasionally bring some random guy over.

In reality, I have no other options but to take this offer. I know I would be stupid to reject it; how many people actually get this kind of opportunity? I ran my hands through my greasy unwashed hair, it was currently Friday and the school wanted me to fly down for early enrollment on Monday. I only would have one last weekend here. The place where I fell in love, and got my heart broken. Even with the terrible memories here, all I could currently think of were the good ones. When Vic and I had sex for the first time, the stupid argument we would have but then quickly make up, and of course the moment I realized I loved Vic. I would be giving up on ever getting the chance to be with Vic again if I took this, but I would also be giving up on everything I worked so damn hard for if I didn't take it.

I closed my laptop and walked to the living room to look out the window. I needed to go talk to Mike about this. My mom was at work still so I had time to go talk it over with him. I guess more than anything I wanted someone to tell me to stay, I was desperate for someone to want me, all I wanted was for Vic to look at me and for once beg me to stay. I wanted to feel wanted so fucking badly. With a long sigh, I slipped on my shoes and headed over to the Fuentes house. I knew they were home cause their bikes were in the drive way, also they passed me after school.

I walked up to the wooden front door and knocked on it loudly. A few moments later, Mike stood in front of me with a smile. I was grateful for Mike, he's been really understanding about my feelings these last few weeks, he's also been doing everything he can to try and bring back my Vic. I know he was wearing thin though with me, I will admit I was being the annoying ex that couldn't let go, it just sucked knowing that somewhere in Vic's brain was this memory of us that he just couldn't access. Mike stood to the side, inviting me in.

"How are you?" Mike asked softly.

"I'm okay." I shrugged. I walked over to the couch and plopped myself down. "I actually have some news" I confessed to him. His eyebrows raised in excitement as he sat on the chair to my left.

"What's that?" he quizzed me.

"I got in." I sighed

"You're going to have to give me a bit more than that." he chuckled.

"I got into Harvard." I stated

"Oh." There was empty silence between us. I studied his face and saw all the different emotions rush over them. I could tell he knew how I was feeling about this. He looked back up at me with a small smile on his face and nodded. "That's really great Kellin.".