The life and struggles of EmoBoyPoem

THE REAL BULLY

You said you'll always be there for me.
That no matter what time or day I can always contact you.
Now that I need you,you are no where to be found.
Even though you said this time you're not going anywhere.
But where are you now?
Do you still even care?
Why do you always disappear when i need you the most?
I tried to forget you and move on,but how do you forget a friend that means the world to you?
Now I'm just sitting in my room,music on and pills in hand.
How much will it take to finally forget you,like you forgot me?
A double dose? Triple dose? Or should I just take the whole bottle?
Bet you will finally start to really care for me then.
Or should I just cut myself a little just to release the pain I feel inside?
Bring it out to the outside,set myself free from you.
Free from this bullshit feeling.
Free from this world.
School is so crappy,all I get is bullied.
And then you add to the pain I feel inside.
Cuz at the end of the day real bully is you.

17/04/2005 This is the date i tried to commit suicide. It's also the the day it was my moms birthday