I need you (Saioma) *Finished*

⚠️-Chapter Ten- ⚠️

(Hello again, sorry for cliffhanger and the dramatic last chapter, but here's the warning again. This chapter will contain; self harm, blood, vomit, and mention of depression)

Kokichi's POV

        The world around me began to come back, I could breathe again. I began to come to and my eyes opened to see Shuichi above me. His face was burning red and tears were flowing down his face. He didn't notice I was conscious again. But where was I? Why was I in this room and why is it so quiet in here? But more importantly, why was Shuichi with me? My thought was interrupted when I saw Shuichi look down to me and saw my open eyes. He held on to my tight as he sobbed to me. "I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you Ouma. I shouldn't of left your side. I'm so sorry." He cried. Tears began to fall down my face as well, I went to hold him back when suddenly, I felt a wave of nausea hit me again. I sprung up from his grip and reached for a bedside trashcan. Shu quickly noticed and grabbed by hair before I began to puke my guts up into the bucket. I fell to the ground again and continued to vomit my brains out. Shuichi still remained holding my hair and rubbed my back as a comfort. After a while, I had nothing left in my system. And I couldn't bring myself to throw up anymore. I put the trashcan down and leaned my body into Shuichi's. He held me close and was sure to not let go. Now it was my turn to apologize; "I'm really sorry Shuichi, none of this is your fault, it's mine for being so damn stubborn. This whole party was a bad idea and I'm really sorry I roped you into this mess. You can just leave me here if you want, I wouldn't blame you.".

    "Are you kidding Ouma? I wouldn't dream of leaving you here. I agree that the party was a bad call, but we were both in the wrong and that's okay. Why don't we go home now? You could use some rest." He spoke up. He was right, I did wanna be home, but I didn't want him to leave me. I was too fragile to have him leave me again. I held on to him tightly and nodded my head in approval. Suddenly the door opened and there stood Maki and Kaito. Both of them held a towel and water bottle in each hand and their faces were painted with a look of concern. I hid my face in my hands not wanting them to see how absolutely destroyed I looked. But Kaito approached me and spoke up; "It's okay Ouma, I don't think any less of you for this, we all have off days. Here, take these and we'll drive you home, okay?". He leaned the water bottle and towel towards me and I took them as I muttered a quiet "thank you" under my breath. I opened up the bottle and took small sips to stable myself and I dumps a bit on my head to cool down. Once I felt well enough I tapped Shuichi's shoulder and asked for his help.

As soon as I asked, he rose to his feet and went to my left side while Maki went to my right. Like that, they both supported my arms and lifted me up. Once I was on my feet, Maki and Kaito said they would go get the car and met us out front. Shuichi stayed by my side supported my body to make sure I wouldn't fall. We took our time and slowly made our way into the hallway and down the stairs. Everyone watched as Shuichi guided my fragile body to the front door. Luckily for me, everyone just assumed I was shitfaced and let us go, but Rantaro stopped us at the door. "Hey guys, are you okay?" He asked with a worried look on his face.
"Ouma is sick, so I'm gonna take him home now" Shuichi responded, making sure not to show my weaknesses to others. Rantaro nodded his head in understanding and wished me a good recovery. Once we stepped outside, Shuichi stopped walking and put his opposite arm under my knees and lifted me up into his arms. My heart was now going a mile a minute despite all that was going on. He carried me out to Kaito's car and sat us in the back seat. As soon as we got in the car, Kaito drove off and in no time was in the campus parking lot. It felt as though as soon as we got in the car, it was time to get out. Maki and Kaito got out and Opened the door for Shuichi. I tried to get up, but all I saw was all of them shake their head in disapproval. Saihara got out and Kaito reached into the car and lifted me out. This scared the shit out of me and I panicked a bit. He must've noticed this because he immediately said "I'm not gonna drop you little buddy, I'll pass you to Saihara once we get to your dorm". We all giggled a bit and cracked jokes until we reached the Outside of my dorm. Kaito passed me off to Shuichi and opened the door for us. We thanked both him and Maki then walked inside as they left for their own perspective dorms.

"Saihara, can you please stay with me tonight? I need you with me." I begged as he placed me on the couch.

"Already planned on it Ouma, I wouldn't dream of leaving your side. But, I'm gonna get in pajamas, and set up your bed. Is that okay?" He replied.

" Yea, that's okay, while you do that, I'm gonna run to the bathroom." I responded as I started to help myself up. I carefully made my way into the bathroom as Shuichi went about his business. Once I was in there I locked the door behind me and reached into the drawer. Tears poured down my face as I pulled out my sharp razor blade and rolled up my sleeve. I was absolutely miserable and felt like shit for making Saihara go through this, and I needed to have a distraction. This was my way of coping, I know it isn't a good way, but it's my way. I took the blade and glided it against the skin of my wrist until blood began to flow out of the small cuts. I continued until I reached about 14 bleeding slices. I quickly washed the blade off and tucked it back into its rightful spot and closed the drawer. I spent some time to watch the blood trickle down onto my hand before wrapping my arm up and tucking it all under my long sleeves. I carefully cleaned up any blood that slipped past me then I exited the bathroom. I took my time and I walked to my room to be greeted by a smiley Saihara on my bed. He stood up and helped me into the bed. He hopped back into the bed and tucked us under the blanket. It was in this moment I realized that I needed to take off my costume hat still, so I took it off and went to put it in my bedside drawer. However once I reached into the drawer I hit a box with my finger. In that moment, I remembered that I never gave Saihara his ring and little Sherlock figure.

      "Hey Saihara-Channn! Close your eyes I have a surprise." I spoke up. He willingly agreed and held his hands out with his eyes closed. I placed the figure in his right hand and the ring box in his left. He opened his eyes and his face immediately lit up at the sight of the Sherlock figure. He smiled and admired the beauty of the well crafted toy. Shuichi lightly put the figure aside and went to open the box. My heart pounded with anxiety and joy as I watched him lift the lid off the tiny box. I watched as he looked into the box and his eyes began to twinkle. Before even investigating the box further, Shuichi pulled me into a big hug and held me close. "Thank you Ouma, this really means the world to me. You really didn't need to do this, but I'll wear it everyday and treasure it forever. And don't worry, I'll make it up to you one day." He choked back. A tear fell down his cheek as he put the ring on his finger. Not only did he put it on his finger, but he put it on his left ring finger. THE MARRIAGE FINGER. I was incredibly overjoyed and my heart wouldn't slow down no matter what. I was truly in love with him and I had so much hope that he loves me too. He put the figure and the empty box on the table then turned off the lights. We both turned on the tv and laid down. He pulled me into his arms and cuddled me close to him the whole night. As I drifted off to sleep, I felt a peck from his lip touch the top of my head. I went to sleep peacefully tonight.

Oh Shuichi, would you be so kind as to fall in love with me?

Please, you're all I want in this world.