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Part19:And You Let Her Go

  

       

         Love,
         It can make someone feel happy
         But......
         

        The love my mother have with Chen's father just make everyone suffer.The love that they share only make me and Chen traped in trouble now.And now i know,that love also make Chen losing his beloved mother.After hearing that story from Chen,i cannot sure about my feeling either to angry,sad,or happy for my mother.One thing i sure,i dont want to see her now so i just stay at the hospital when Chen just go back to his home.

     

       I took my phone out of my jeans and dialling Ji Hyeon number.After three beep i can hear her soft voice greeting me.

     

     "Ji Hyeon-ah.Can you help me?"I asked her without greeting her.I just need something from her and i hope she can help me.

     "Wae?Are you in trouble?"her concern voice asked me back.

     "Ani,i just want to asked you if you can let me stay at your house tonight."she silent for a minute.I thought she dont want me to stay with her before she suddenly asked.

    "Im with Chanyeol right now.Why dont you come here?The other guy also here."she said and hearing that make me feel uneasy.If i go there,i will meet with Chen and it only make me remind the look he gave me earlier before he leave me.

     "Okay."i said.There is no point to avoiding him.It will only make it complicated.Ji Hyeon tell me the adress and i step out from my appa's room with a heavy heart.

       But after i took three step far from the room,i stood akrwardly when my sight suddenly catch my mother with Mr.Kim.They walk toward my appa's room without noticing my presence because i see they were talking seriously.I trying to hide my face cause i dont want to face and talk to them,but i feel my heart stop conducted when suddenly i heard someone calling my name.

       "Lee Anne."The voice so manly yet sound dominant.I trying not to turn my head but hearing that voice immedietly make me facing him.Im protest in silence why i react like that to him.My mother seem surprised,maybe she did'nt expect to see me here and i only look around without meet with her eyes since i dont want to see that 'mother' eyes.

     "We need to talk,dear."She said while trying to snatch my attention by holding my hand.I just give her my blank face not react to her.It just i dont want to say something that can hurt her since she still my mother and that cant be change forever.

     "Yeah,we really need to talk."i said to her but my eye gazed straight to Mr.Kim who also stare at me.

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        "Either you choose me or him,its you choice now.If you choose me,i promise to be a good daughter to you,but if you choose him over me..."i stop and duck my head gather all my strenght but someone suddenly enter the toilet and gaze me like im a freak cause she looking at me who talking to the mirror,I try to smile to her and she arkwardly smile to me and enter the toilet.

   

          I sighed and stared at my reflection on the mirror.They must be waiting for me now.When we arrive at the restaurant,i just go straight to the toilet to send a text to Suho oppa about this meeting.He text me back that he will try to come here with Chen because they at Min Seok's oppa house right now.There is many thing inside my head and its only make me feel dizzy.When i took a glimps on my wristwatch,i already leave them for 15 minutes.With a heavy sighed i walking out from the toilet.

         "What making you so long dear?"My mother asked me as i took a sit infront of her.I gazed at her without answering her question.

       "Even you're angry with your mother,it doesnt make you can rude to her.She still your mother." Suddenly Mr.Kim speak when im did'nt answering the lady beside him.Hearing that from him make me chuckled and i bravely stared at him.

      "Because she is my mother im trying not to rude to her now."I said and with that he frowned.My mother only bite her bottom lips when i say that without looking at her.I can feel my heart beat fast since im holding myself from being rude to them.

      "Anne."With a soft voice,my mother called my name.I lift my head.

     "I understand,youre angry with me,and i know im the fault one here.But,can you understand me why im doing this?Im a women Anne and im also want to be love and you father cant give me that since he laying in the hospital right now."She said and that make me lease my tears.How can she talk like that?She look surprised seing im crying infront of her and Mr.Kim duck his face not wanting facing me.

      "Are my love didnt enough for you?"i asked her.I cant believe the mother i love for all these years saying thing like that.She didnt answer me  and choosing look away from me.Looking at her like that,i stand up from the chair.

      "Okay,you can be with him if that is what you want."i say and walk away from them,but after 2 step i turn back and facing her happy face while holding Mr Kim hand and that make me come with one decision.

      "But,forget me being your daughter."And with that i quickly walked out from the restaurant ignoring my mother who calling my name.

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           I walking and keep walking without knowing my destination.What i know right now,my mother choose to be with another men and abandoned me and that really hurt me.My phone keep ringing and i just ignore it.And when i realise,i already facing the Han River.The cold air keep sweeping my skin and that coldness cant stop me from crying.

      "Lee Anne."someone call my name and i turn to the voice.Seing him infront of me now make me sobbing harder and he walk closer to me and i feel warm when he hug me.

     "Just cry as much as you want.I will be here for you."he whisper.I lift my head and gaze him.

     "Luhan oppa..."

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