You can sing, you can dance, and you can rap. All in all you're a performer.
Except you aren't. Even though you want to be.
You want nothing more than to make music, sell out shows, and perform for people.
But the doors haven't opened for you...
It's been a month since I walked away from Ariana at the label. But it hasn't felt like a month.
We knew each other for a week and I fell for her in that short amount of time. Only for her to accuse me of using her for fame.
I constantly told her that I wanted people to hear my music and know me through it. Fame isn't what I'm after and she knew that, yet she still said what she said.
Part of me thinks I over reacted but seeing as I know exactly how crazy about her I am, it hurt like hell to know she thought so lowly of me.
Anyway. I've been pouring myself into my music. So far, apart from Rush, I've released Where Were You, Closer, and a new song I wrote called Please.
It's 100 percent reflective of how I was feeling about the Ariana thing. That part of me that regretted getting so angry with her.
All three songs completely blew up. Please is currently number 2 on the charts and it's still getting millions of streams. And Where Were You is number 3.
Scooter and Anthony have been getting me a lot of interviews, my biggest day time one being The Real and my biggest late night being Kimmel.
And of course I've been getting a crap load of followers on social media.
There's obviously some hate but there's way more love and it's crazy.
With it all comes the money, money that I've used for myself and my family.
For one I finally moved my mom and Samia out of San Bernardino. The new house is super homey but way bigger and in a much safer neighborhood. My mom of course saved one of the bedrooms for me.
For Samia's sake I made sure it wasn't too far from her school, even though I really wanted her to go to a better one so her opportunities to succeed would be better. But she told me she's got it and I trust her.
As for me. I'm no longer staying in a hotel in New York.
Anthony was hired by Republic to be my official manager and that comes with a very sizable pay check. That along with my money got the two of us a sweet apartment in Midtown.
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Despite mine and Ariana's disagreement, Courtney and Anthony are still together, it's official now. They're all over each other's social media's and they're all over each other in general.
I thought I'd be jealous at first but I'm just really happy for my longtime best friend and my new best friend.
Currently though, actual present day, I'm at home watching tv in the living room. Well the tv is on but I'm writing lyrics.
My next project is an EP. With all my singles blowing up I'm super confident in the EP. But I do feel like something's missing, Anthony says it's a feature but I'm not sure.
