Agent J // NEX7 Fan ChengCheng

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○ Should've taken you with me ○
○ I'm failing ○

"Has he shown any signs of improvement yet?" the agent asked as she saw her lover on the bed, still lifelessly laid there as the doctor checked up on him. "Improvement on his vital signs are shown, just like I said before, he's stable. I'm sure he'll wake up soon" he said and she nodded, thanking the doctor before he left the room.

The guest room was basically a ward now, it had all the equipments a hospital would have and it was full of tubes and equipments connected to the head guard. It hurt her heart to see her love in such a state but she knew that she had to stay strong for his sake, for their sake.

He'd stayed so strong when she was held captive and now it was her turn to do so. It has been a little over 3 days since the incident happened and his condition has been steadily improving but there had been no sign of him waking up.

She sighed as she sat down beside his bed. His sister had to run errands across the kingdom and will be back in a few days. Meanwhile, she was in charge of the mansion while she was gone. The guards would come and visit from time to time but they were all busy and couldn't visit often. Even the Queen came to visit the head guard who had been serving her for years with dignity.

They surely haven't celebrated their success yet, they were still waiting for the head guard to wake up from his deep slumber. Yanjun visited the most, insisting that he should keep her company in the mansion as she was very much lonely and he had nothing to do. He wasn't a guard, not at all as he certainly started with M and came with J, though he has been wanting to become a part of the royal guards for a while now.

M was taken to court and he was put to jail for life. All that was for putting the Queen in danger and that one of his men shot the head guard. He had nothing to say against himself, he knew that one of the most powerful influencers was there to witness it happen and would be able to do anything within her power to put him in some sort of misery for hurting her dearest brother.

He knew that it was no point of arguing with her or the agent either, knowing that her brothers are the CEOs of one of the biggest companies in the world. It was pointless for him to do anything so he decided to just accept what has been done and what will be done. He knew that the punishment he got was well deserved and he accepted it with nothing to say.

"I hate that I feel completely useless without him, like I'm not supposed to feel like this. I used to be so strong and powerful in doing these kind of things and now I feel completely powerless when I know that he's just fine and will wake up soon. I can't help myself I just- I just feel like I need to feel him, know that he's really okay" she rambled on and on to a listening Yanjun.

It was one of those days that Yanjun could actually visit her for hours on end and listen to everything in her heart. "Look, I don't know about all these things about love because I don't have a lover but I know that the agent deep down hasn't disappeared. It just changed to adapt to the fact that there's someone you love so dearly in your heart" he said.

"And how would you know that? I have completely no idea of what I'm feeling at the moment and I'm supposed to be the agent of love. What is happening to me?" she held her head between her hands as she slightly tugged on her own hair, feeling so frustrated of herself.

"Sometimes, the agent of love needs a guide and the agent of love sure as hell needs a lover to love them for who they are, cherish them for what they have, and be with them till the end of time" he said and his words hit her heart like a million arrows just striked at it. "Sometimes I just hate how your words are always true" she looked at him as he chuckled and shrugged at her.

"What can I say? I'm quite the advisor" he said and it was her turn to chuckle at his words. "I've got to go now, my parents are out of the hospital and I need to be there ASAP" he said and she smiled as she nodded. "Thank you and I wish the best for your parents" she said and he thanked her before he left.

She sat down on the sofa and was about to make something for herself to eat when the doorbell rang. She furrowed her eyebrows as confusion filled her mind. Did Yanjun forget something? She went over to the door and opened it, an emergency shotgun behind her back. But all she saw was a harmless old woman.

"Who are you? Where's BingBing?" she asked and looked around. "She's running errands and I'm put in charge of the whole mansion while she's gone" she said. "Well I suppose I should introduce myself. I'm BingBing's mom, Zhang Chuanmei" she said and the agent's eyes widened.

"You're their mother?" she asked and she nodded. "I assume you already know of my son, ChengCheng. He has always been that reckless kid, always thinking that all the danger in the world is incomparable to his strength and the impact he has" she said. "How do you know him?" she asked and her ears turned red.

"Well..." her voice trailed off. Chuanmei's mother senses turned on and sensed something was between her son and the woman in front of her. "You're dating my son aren't you, Agent J?" she asked and the agent gasped but kept her mouth shut afterwards, not wanting to talk about their relationship.

She chuckled as she put her hand on her shoulder. "I'm glad my son found a woman like you" she said which shocked the agent. "But I just made your son take a bullet for me, I should've been the one shot instead of him, I should've taken him into my arms so he wouldn't be so bare in front of this cruel world and yet I didn't. I failed, I failed as a lover and here he is, taking a goddamn bullet to save my life" she said.

The woman chuckled at her confession but deep down, she was glad that her son made the right choice this time. She knew how heartbroken he was when he found out that his past lover had cheated on him and now, he has a whole new different lover to care for him.

"No matter how you fail, I know my son has made the right choice to choose a woman like yourself"