NOW YOU SEE ME.

Chapter 34.

" You miss him, don't you?" Fiona asks , standing in front of me with Candy by her side.

I don't say anything, but just look at them. They silently join me on the grass, where I've been sitting and quietly reading a book. The silence proves to be too much for Candy, I can already sense her about to speak, she talks, a lot. " We've been watching you and how - "

" Now I feel stalked." I comment.

" No we don't mean it like that, just that - you smiled more when he was around." She trails off when I look at her.

We remain in silence now, neither one of us having enough courage to say any more. Taking in a breath , I finally speak up. " Yes I do miss him and a part of me wishes he could have stayed."

They both give me swooning , girly looks, making me feel weird now. " But I don't have no regrets about him being out of here, he'll get back to his life now."

" And what about you?" Fiona asks.

" What about me?" I frown at her.

" What's your plan? "

" I don't have a plan, just for me to finish my program."

" And miss a chance of actually chasing after love?.....No way." Candy vigorously shakes her head like she can't believe that I've just said this.

I sigh and when I'm about to say something, Candy cuts me off and speaks up. " I think it's time to spice this summer up."

I'm now confused, which I think she notices when she continues " Look, the heart wants what it wants and your little one is empty without Connor, so we've got to fulfill the hearts desire."

" Meaning?" I ask with suspicion.

Not long after I just asked, both their faces light up with a mischievous glint in their eyes, making me wonder if maybe, just maybe, they are up to know good.

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Sometimes in life you've got to take risks just for the hearts desire, it's not easy though, especially if you know that your actions may cause pain to the ones you love.

I have to do this, I need to see him, I need to hear his voice and just to see him and even if it's for a few hours, I'll take what I can get. I love Connor and me doing what I'd just done, which was to run away was not only about him, but for me.

I did it, I ran away from the centre, well more like made a drastic escape, all thanks to Fiona and Candy, who had me promise them that I will call them once I arrive in Miami.

Yep, I was travelling to Miami, it's quite a distance but doing this seems more important now.

I can't believe I'm doing this, it's crazy and maybe that's the reason, that being this crazy can be the very thing to make me sane, in both mind and heart. I'm young, crazy and maybe just a little naive, who knows and who cares, because I surely don't ,only about what's ahead.

My heart had spoken this time, it was clear about it's decision. My heart is with Connor and it's been long since crying out for him. I don't know what I had been thinking to think that I could last so long without seeing him.

I knew the minute he entered my room that night, that he would be trouble for this heart of mine. Spending time with him has taught me to let myself be free and not feel guilty about wanting something. That is why at this moment, I don't care. I don't care what anyone says, I'm going to see him.

The boy who in the short space of time, has become the most important, for my heart to just let him be a memory. No, I want to see him and to hold him, I even miss his scent.

I sound crazy but I don't care.

I don't care and it sounds so good to say that.

There's a lot I've just left behind but there seems to be more to where I'm going. I've never been to Miami, I've never met his family officially and I've never travelled so far alone. Everything will be a new experience and as nervous as I am, I am eager to experience new things. I also know things have consequences but at this moment, I'd rather receive them when I get there.

Everything about this trip is crazy, from how I ran away in the early morning, using the laundry time into my advantage, making sure no one found me, my goodbye letters to Vicky and mom, breaking in at home while my mom was not home but at work, and taking all my needed documents and my years savings for this trip, like I said, crazy.

I've placed everything into this trip and for the moment I see him. It's crazy.

Crazy, crazy, crazy. That's all I can say.

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Well, what do you think about her decision?

A new place and all for Connor.

If that is not love, then I dont know what is.....lol😆😆😆😅😅

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