NOW YOU SEE ME.

Chapter 39.

What a rush, the beach, the feel of the water and those waves.

I might be alone and experiencing this alone but damn I'm having such a blast, the sun is setting and I really hope he'll be back soon, since he's surely missing out on a lot of fun.

What I love about being in the water is how freeing it is, being controlled by the water yet feeling on top of the world while gaining such a rush. I'm quite sure my voice is pretty much disappearing, and the cold is creeping in. Being in the water, the sun disappearing and me in this space, absorbing what I can while freely letting go. What more could I want?

It's truly a gift to be able to let go and have a moment to be in your own space at your own time.

Sighing after a minutes debate of whether I should call him or not, I groan out, feeling undecided.

I'm already done with my swim and it was so refreshing, though it would have been cool if Connor were present, I've already bathed and have even eaten a bit, so I don't go all hungry. As much as I've loved being here, it's not the same without him, I miss him already and he's been gone for quite a while now, having me a bit worried. I know that his mom needs him and I too, would jump on the first car to get to my mom.

Speaking of my mother, I'm quite certain that she's still ringing up Connor and I know that she's worried and wants me safe, as much as she claims to need me, I think she's grown accustomed to having me around ,forming some sort of attachment which now may serve as her greatest weakness.

She can't let go and I'm afraid that the thought of me at a far distance, will break her heart, just like I don't want me being here to damage her. I love my mother and would do the absolute best to make her happy, she's both my friend and mother and there's no one I trust more then her, we've always been close, attached to the bone and know each other.

As much as I love her, I love Connor too. He's my breath of fresh air, my friend and the guy I love, he may still be a danger for this heart of mine but him not being close, is one thing I can't seem to picture.

With him, things seem to make sense, my life is full of fun, new experiences and lessons learnt. He has broken down my walls and has given me a sense of living, he makes me feel beautiful and treasured, being important to him, his words of honesty create that space of trust for me, where I'm not afraid to face things and let people in.

Both these people are important in my life, yet one of them seems to get hurt whenever I turn the other direction, one thing I never want is to be caught in the middle. In situations such as those, you are always troubled by unnerving questions, hard truths and hurtful facts, nothing seems to ever be the choice unless you consider ones feelings.

I just hope that soon things will come to light and there would be new perspectives, where all the people I love are happy and still are in my life.

" No, no, he'll be back, be patient." I tell myself while trying to relax on the bed.

I've tried sleeping and let's just say that nothing seems to work.

The view after a while serves as a distraction and seems to help though, with the sound of those waves and the sea movements bringing a sense of peace, so that's why I'm now standing, leaned against the sliding door. I'm so deep in my thought while watching the sea, I don't hear movement behind me until someone says, "Hi, you must be the special lady I should be - "

Wait...

I spin around so fast that I almost bump into the glass sliding door, but I still manage to hold onto my balance.

He doesn't say anything for a minute, all he's doing is staring at me, as if trying to convince himself that a person is standing in front of him.