Are you following me Mr Hiddleston? (A Tom Hiddleston Fanfiction)

Chapter 10

Tom finally got back to his house at 4:38am. He tried to be as quiet as he possibly could, closing the door gently behind himself and letting Bobby off his lead. Bobby raced off towards the kitchen. As Tom went to put his jacket back up onto the hooks he noticed the kitchen light was on. He gathered there was no need to be quiet anymore. Hooking up his jacket finally and putting Bobby's lead up next to his jacket, he took a deep breath and walked towards the kitchen. Zawe was stood leaning on the work top with a cup in hand and a dressing gown wrapped around her naked body. Tom stood in the door way nervously meeting Zawe's gaze.

"Hi" Tom managed to speak first as he put his hands into his jeans' pockets.

"Hi" Zawe said before turning her attention to Bobby who was very excited to see her up. The room filled with silence as Zawe began petting Bobby and scratching his belly.

"I'm sorry Zawe, I've not been the easiest to put up with..." Tom slowly entered into the kitchen still leaving quite a distance between himself and Zawe whilst his hands remained in his pockets. "I promised you that you deserved better from me and I haven't kept that promise" Zawe straightened herself back up placing her cup down to give him her full attention. "You've been wonderful despite everything...you've heard nothing but the wrong answers, you've been hurt by me and you've been dragged along for long enough. Know this, I do care about you Zawe" Tom closed the distance between them as he took her hands in his. "Maybe...just maybe we're not meant to get married and have children together. It makes me sad to think about it but there's no point in staying together and go through all of that if there's no love. I'd very much like to still be your friend. If you'll have me as one" Tom kissed Zawe's forehead.

"I honestly thought you were the one" Zawe's voice was small and her hands felt numb in his. Tom pulled away slightly but kept hold of her hands. "I thought wow this is the man I want to be with for the rest of my life. He's kind, gentle, intelligent and a goof ball at times...but now it's like..." Zawe started to look down at their hands as she tried to search for the right words. "Its like it was nothing but a dream I had" Zawe's gaze lifted looking back at Tom's eyes. "I was imagining it, hoping that it was right but I was fooling myself. I was fooling you Tom that this could work. I can't blame you for all of it. And while we're being honest..." Zawe bit her bottom lip nervously. "I have to admit that I-I had a few doubts about everything before Margot."

"What do you mean? I thought that's when everything went to shit" Tom frowned his brows with confusion.

"I-I kind of felt something for someone briefly...but I never acted on it." Tom took a deep breath as his mind was trying to wrap around this new information given to him, and he let go of her hands folding his arms across his chest. "I ignored it because I thought I was in love with you and when I say briefly that's exactly what it was. Brief. It was a stupid feeling because I cared too much about you. Again at that time I was having doubts about us..." Tom started to subtly sway uncomfortably. "Everything went to shit yes when Margot came in the picture. I realised that could have been me if I had acted upon my fleeting feelings. Seeing you with her reminded me of that." Zawe's face scrunched up as the feelings of hurt from that night washed over her just thinking about them being together. "Although I never thought you'd be that kind of man. A man to succumb to his animal urges, by hurting the woman he is already with to be with another. The more I think about it our relationship could have easily turned into Betrayal."

"I think I need to sit down" Tom felt light headed all of a sudden. He pulled out a chair from the kitchen table; he sat down on the edge of the wooden chair with his eyes frantically running back and fourth as if reading lines, as his mind spun around with Zawe's words sinking their way into his mind. Bobby sat himself down by Tom's feet staring up at him. "S-so you're telling me this now?" Tom finally spoke up again.