Breaking another man's heart - woosan

The party

Since it is Valentine's Day and no one but the couple was in a relationship, the rest of Ateez decided to have a little party. Hongjoong already got the manager's permission.
Just don't overdo it. That's what the manager said as Hongjoong remembered correctly after waking up naked besides his Hyung.

Seonghwa woke up because of the wobbling in his bed and saw that Hongjoong was awake and sitting up. Slowly rising, Seonghwa touched the arm of the smaller one slightly and received a violent twitch in response. The older one feels bad after what happened yesterday. He still remembers it very well as he drank much less than Hongjoong.

Flashback

Hongjoong announced that we are allowed to throw a small party and even drink some soju. Before that he also announced that two of our members will not be there, as they would have each other to celebrate Valentine's Day. When we started drinking we played a little game called Never have I ever where we all sat in a circle and one of us made a simple statement he had never done in his life and the others had to drink if they already did. To my surprise Hongjoong drank a lot and we called it a night when he started to slur almost every sentence.

So I took him to our room but as he didn't want to stand up I had to carry him bridal style.
When we arrived in our room, I laid him on his bed and looked at him and just a moment later Hongjoong began to turn from the side onto his back and threw up over himself and on the bed. I reacted quickly enough for him not to suffocate and took off his clothes. Frustrated I looked at him and the mess he has made as he looked back at me and began to stretch out his arms like a little child and wanted me to pull him up into a standing position. After pulling him up he now stood in front of me half-naked, staring at me.

His hands reached my face and what I heard next made my heart break.
"Wooyoung-ah I love you" I heard and saw tears escaping Hongjoongs beautiful eyes.
"I've wanted to tell you so badly" Hongjoong added choking and crying even harder now.

I didn't know Hongjoong was in love with Wooyoung. I thought and looked at him. He hugged me and cried his heart out. Is that why he reacted the way he did when he found out that Wooyoung and San were dating? I continued to drift of in my thoughts as I slowly noticed that Hongjoong tried to take my pants off.

As I tried to stop him he whined.

"Hongjoong-ah it's me Seonghwa Hyung." I tried to shake him out of his thoughts and it seemed to work as he slowly said my name and touched my face for recognition again.

"Seonghwa Hyung pleasee sleep with mee" Hongjoong lulled and I was a little bit taken aback. He surely knew who was standing in front of him and before I could react I already felt his lips on mine moving aggressively.

I tried to push him away from me but to no avail. He was smal but he was surely strong enough to beat my weakness for him. I could not resist as I felt like heaven. My secret crush was kissing me.

Flashback ends

One thing led to another and here we are this morning on my bed and naked. I knew exactly what happened. And I also knew exactly that he only slept with me because his heart was broken.
But what should I do with him now? I can't accept it if he hates me now after we had sex. I will try to explain what happened last night and hope he will forgive me for giving in. I have to open up to him about my feelings for him now or else I will lose him forever. I thought while Hongjoong got up without looking back at me to go to the bathroom.

I feel really guilty and disgusting for using my friend.

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Okay. Here I am again. I really felt like writing today😄 I am really inspired today and I actually didn't want to update this chapter so quickly but the last one I updated today was short so yeah haha

Thank you so much and see you next time