Breaking another man's heart - woosan

The day after

After Hongjoong came out of the bathroom again he looked at me and stood still.

"We need to talk" We were both perplexed as we've said it in unison.

"Let't eat breakfast and then talk" I added after a strange and silent pause but got a nod in response.

On the table I tried to act as normal as possible in front of the others. In my case that worked but I saw that Hongjoong was struggling to keep a straight face. And it got even harder for him as the happy couple came back home holding hands and smiling from face to face - laughing and glancing at each other.

By now, even our youngest Jongho has seen that Hongjoong was behaving strangely. I felt a light tap on my shoulder and just as I turned my head to Jongho he asked me if our leader had slept badly because he had heard strange noises from our room last night but didn't want to disturb so he just ignored it and hoped that everything was fine.
Swallowing and inwardly panicking I tried not to show any signs of embarrassment.

"Ahh. Yes he slept badly. He had a little nightmare last night." I answered as confident as I could be and our maknae seemed pleased as he turned back to his food again not questioning my answer.

While I was distracted with Jongho, I didn't notice how Hongjoong had already eaten up and was about to change. I shoved the last piece into my mouth and stood up too - not before bowing to my members. As I received weird glances from everyone else especially from my two best friends I apologized again and quickly grabbed my own keys and hurried after Hongjoong - closing the door after me. Catching up after him I stopped him by grabbing his arm making him halt abruptly.

"Let's go to the rooftop. No one can see or hear us there" I suggested and we both went up without sharing a single word.

Now we stood there for 5 minutes, 10 minutes, 15 minutes? I have no idea how long we've been standing at the railing of that rooftop. What I do know is that we haven't exchanged a word yet. What is going through the smaller ones' mind right now? Is he mad at me for not saying anything? Is he waiting for me to start talking? All these thoughts went through my head. I am shy myself I don't know how to start the conversation. Nevertheless, I still tried to start the conversation in some way. So I started with the first thing that came into my head and propably the worst one to begin with.

"So you like Wooyoung?" I asked and immediately regretted my choise of question as he looked at me with pure shock and disappointment written all over his beautiful face.

"Ah. You don't remember anything from last night. I'm sorry. You told me last night before we ... ahm... Weee...  "I added but struggled to complete my sentence.

"Had sex. I know. I remember some things now." Hongjoong completed and looked away again ashamed of the situation what he's gotten himself and his Hyung in.

"You know, we can forget about this, right? You like Wooyoung and in that case I think that yesterday was a huge mistake. We were both not thinking clearly... I just don't want our friendship to suffer or break compleately." I said with an obviously sad voice as he looked back at me.

Reality caught up with me again as I felt soft fingers on my cheeks not realising that I started to cry.

"Why are you crying Hyung?" Hongjoong asked slightly confused with my actions as he tried to wipe the tears from my face.

I took his hands and pulled them down to hold them as gently as possible - fearing that they would break if I held on too tight. My eyes which were previously focused on our hands now looked deeply into his eyes. I had to pull myself together not to kiss him here and now that's how tempting he looked.
Not knowing where my courage came from I confessed my love for him.

"I love you so much Hongjoong-ah. I enjoy every moment I can spend with you and I want to tell you that you are the most beautiful, the most important and valuable person in my life. I love you more than anything else!"

Before the shorter one could answer or say anything I added
"I know you don't love me but I hope that you could at least try to love me."
While I was waiting for an answer I saw in his eyes that he was trying to form an answer. His mind seemed really troubled and I didn't expect what came out of his mouth.

"Well... I could try to love you. As you definitely know my love is one sided and will propably never be returned. I am sick of loving Wooyoung and it hurts me so much to see him and San in love.

Right after he finished his last sentence I grabbed his hips and pulled him in for a hug. I was so glad that Hongjoong accepted my love for him and that he would try to love me as well. Now he would need time to think about this whole situation and I am happy that I am the one who could give him his happiness back.

We stayed on the rooftop a little longer and talked about Hongjoong's one-sided love. As you know you can only get over your crush if you talk openly to someone close to your heart. And that happened to be me. We have always been close but now that he knows about my feelings for him it feels a lot different - more intimately.

When we went back down to our dorm everything was quiet except for the sound of the television in the living room. When I entered the living room I first saw Jongho sitting on the floor in front of the couch and Yeosang sat next to him. When they saw me and then Hongjoong, they both put a finger in front of their lips and pointed to the couch behind them. There San and Wooyoung lay in each other's arms. The two seemed to be fast asleep and must have fallen asleep during the movie the four of them actually wanted to watch.

Glancing behind me to Hongjoong I saw a little smile on his face. I was glad that he was finally ready to move on from the taken boy. Lightly patting him on the shoulder I turned into the direction of our room and walked into our shared space - being as happy as I could ever have been.

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Next chapter done.
Now that I have one week of carnival holidays, I thought I'd continue writing the story a bit. I hope you enjoyed the chapter. Thanks to everyone who reads my story. I love you all so much 💕