The End → f.s

irwie.

Now Michael is in jail. His parents are so disappointed with him but I know there are still loving and caring in their eyes.

When I got the news that he was sent in jail. I'm really shocked. I'm really really really really shocked.

Because he's the last one ever.

I can't believe he raped a girl, that girl who I thought was his girlfriend. Oh my God why? Why I'm so egoist I can't understand his anxiety this whole fucking time. Why Ashton? Why are you still existed in this fucking world?

Michael. He was the one that introduced me to this fucking band. Yes I swore. I don't think that's bad right now. I don't think what's bad or good again right now.

I met him on facebook, I remember how his ego is longer than his stupid fringe. But he's still my best friend.

He is the first one who accepts me in the band. Well their band sucks at first, it's kinda funny seeing them messing up the whole line but there are still girls obsessing over them. Man I ate my own words.

He, Luke and Calum.

Mostly Calum.

He's my best friend. I know I didn't like him at first, but times flies and back then I was the closest to him but I can't help him. I can't revive him from death. Seeing him buried there under the cruel world broke my heart. Scatters it to pieces and there'll never be a cure.

But you know what?

I wish that I was the one that committed suicide not Calum.

You are wondering? Well no one loves me.

Then there's Luke. That little man, well now he's not that little, he's 18 with a mental situation. I know he was devastated with his mother's death. I know he always cries at 2 am because he didn't want to wake us up.

But I don't know his deep pain can turn into horrible mental sickness.

Them and their own problems, but nothing I can do for them. Not a single thing.

What's wrong with me please!

And now I'm alone. In the madness in this fucking world and I'm here alone. I am scared. I don't wanna be alone. Why everybody kept leaving me? One by one.

I lost all of my best friends.

My guardians.

My live savers.

My partners-in-crime.

Lastly.

I lost all of my brothers.