Flowers Are My Feelings

5

Autumn rolled in quickly. If you asked him years ago, he would have said summer was his favorite.

But now Junho found autumn much more beautiful.

He smiled softly as he looked out of his window. Deciding to sit near the big window while studying, he had made warm tea and pulled out his books. The orange-red leaves falling down the sky was truly beautiful.

A knock made him look up and set his cup down. Eunsang leaned against his door, the younger dressed as if he was going out.

"I'm going to hang out at Yohan hyung's place. You wanna come?" He shook his head, smiling apologetically.

"Sorry, I was planning to study. You guys go without me." Eunsang frowned but said nothing more. He just looked at how the older was cuddled up against the window, books scattered in the bed.

"Have you been feeling alright lately? I've noticed you being paler." Junho smiled softly.

"I'm alright. It must be that it's getting colder." The younger nodded, not fully convinced but let it go. They are best friends, Junho would tell him anything right?

"We miss you hyung. Dongpyo miss you, I miss you too. Please hang out with us when you are free?" Junho laughed.

"You make it sound like I'm going to die. I'm not going anywhere." Junho smiled, telling the other to go before he was late. Eunsang hesitated for a moment.

He looked worried as he went forwards to check his temperature. Junho flushed at the closeness,thankful that the younger was so oblivious. Eunsang sighed before finally stepping back.

Junho turned away to hide his blush as the younger smiled relieved. "Then, I'll get going. Take care, ok?"

He nodded. Eunsang was really sweet, but of course he needed to worry.

Stop being a burden.

He forced a smile as they said goodbye, the sound of the door closing echoing in his mind.

Eunsang didn't see as he bent over, coughing hard as his body shook.

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He met Dongpyo during last year in high school. The other was about a year younger than him and coincidentally, they met during a school activity.

Ever since Wooseok started dating Hyeongjun, they spent lesser and lesser time together. Although, he couldn't blame the older for wanting to be with his boyfriend. After all, they were meant for each other.

Dongpyo was an only child, so when the younger was bored, he would go over to Junho. They developed a friendship pretty fast, Junho could feel relaxed around him. Though he never told the younger about his other "crushes".

Wooseok maybe was one to suspect anything going on. Lucky him that the other was too busy with his boyfriend.

He laughed as Dongpyo smiled evilly, watching Yohan fumble over something in the background. It would be suspicious if he just suddenly stopped hanging out with them, right?

It didn't hurt less just because of that.

Junho didn't know how many times his heart could bear being broken.

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Junho didn't feel alright. When Eunsang first asked if he was alright, he thought the younger had found out.

He was so relieved that he only mentioned the paleness, nothing more.

To be honest, he felt like shit. Junho always had hard time breathing, even harder when any of them was in the same room.