Regrets

F O U R

       - (flashback)-

I shuffled a bit in my seat feeling my legs get numb. I  stayed at the library after school to catch up on unfinished work.

A boy around my age came and sat down across from the desk. Feeling a presence in front of me, I nodded acknowledging him.

I could feel the eyes of the other staring at me but tried to ignore it.

"Don't study me you won't graduate"

"Sorry," I looked up with one of my judging expressions.

"yah! don't lie I saw you checking me out" he said in a dangerously low voice before leaning back on his chair and giving me a sly smirk.

Somehow this made me flush red. Was I really staring him down?

"please" I snickered placing all my belongings in a pile packing up. I tried to avoid as much a contact I could have with him while taking my stuff and leaving.

I tried walking towards the door still cringing inside of how embarrassed I was when my nose crashed into something hard.

"ouch," I whined stumbling back rubbing her nose. My eyes traced up to find the face I was trying to avoid. 

I felt stupid all over again for letting him get to me. "Get lost" I whispered walking around.

But he wasn't about to let me leave like that. He grabbed the book that was sitting loosely on my computer. This was going to feel like an episode of some highschool Kdrama real fast. He snatched the book of holding it high enough for me not to reach.

He squinted trying to read the small letter printed on the cover "maths tips eh?"

"Please just give the book back" I tried reaching for it but failed. To my surprise, he put it back and just walked away.

I unlocked my bike and got on, who even was he? have to admit he's not bad looking.

My life is probably the closest to normal it can get. I wake up, go to college, go home do homework then sleep with the same routine every day.  

No guy had ever shown interest in me except for really sketchy guys that you want nothing to do with. I was in a relationship back in year 10 but it was all fake. I had completely fallen for the guy but he just pretends to fall. Since then I had always been cautious. But know I wanna a change.

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'Mourning class"Our teacher greeted, and we returned the greeting with a monotonous tone.

"Sounds like you kids are interested in today's lesson," she said sarcastically flipping through her notebook. "Now everyone pull out last week's assignment that we were working on."

Everyone unzipped there back and took out their incomplete assignment and started working on it. 

I was focused on my work when I felt someone patting my back.

"Hey...hi, remember me from the library I'm Felix," he said putting his hand out form me. He must have been a new student because I had never seen him here or maybe I just haven't noticed 

"mhm," I fake smiled and turned back around, not interested.

"yah! tell me your name". He kicks my chair and I try ignoring it but he keeps going to the point where I can feel my whole table moving forward. 

I lifted up my chair and smashed it back down on to his foot. I heard him bitting back his scream which made me giggle a little. I lifted it back up and kept going with my work and he didn't bother me for the rest of the lesson which was nice for a change.