Not A Stranger to Pain

Chapter 19

Was she being selective it was   French kissing was more like tongues poking her tongue or mouth.

She was not experienced in the art of love or kissing neither did she know the different kissing styles but she definitely knew that something was definitely wrong.

"Bryan I better be going you know how my parents don't want me out for long" ,said Chara She could do anything just to get away from that. That kiss was horrible, it was tasteless she felt like washing and rinsing her mouth with bleach.

She wondered what was wrong because his body was all she could crave for in her sleep,those defined sculptured abs,those muscles rippling out of his body.

His body was a sin yet his kiss repelled her very being.

The excitement she once had about having a boyfriend left.

Who wouldn't when looking at these circumstances there was just no spark there. She didn't want to be one of those girls who had never felt butterflies in her stomach.

She often read in her favorite novels about men who could make you wet just by looking at them. Yet she was as dry as the Sahara desert.

She longed for that experience , that feeling of love and passionate kisses where a man could explore her body and she would too.

Was that too much to ask she thought frustratedly as she threw herself onto her bed.

Maybe she could grow to like his kisses or hugs she thought.

The days passed and she enrolled at the best university, finally freedom, not that she would party or anything most of the time she spent in her room reading novels, listening to music or sleeping. She also had a roommate as uncomfortable as that was she could manage .

Her roommate loved idle talk yet Chara reveled in the silence of it all. At times she would pretend as though she was listening yet she had spaced out. She had mastered that art with Liz before taking this step to furthering her education.

Bryan often visited her , and she only enjoyed his attention ,she would never admit that out aloud.

Chara  having a boyfriend who often visited her did not deter other guys from trying their luck.Terrence was trying to win her heart.

He never did anything romantic but he would tell Chara's roommate to open the door to their room at an ungodly hour just so that he could woe Chara.

Terrence was an annoying drunkard who convinced Chara a friendship of some sorts.

Whilst Chara was at school Bryan cheated on her. The day started like this she was sleeping when she received a call from her mother.

Chara dreaded to answer but she still did only to be told that Bryan was now dating someone else ouch that was a bit painful. It was like a small pinch you feel when an ant bites you.

Chara didn't really know if she should be angry or be happy she was a little uncertain about her feelings. She somehow knew that this day would come because he had been giving her a cold shoulder lately.

More like those one word answers he had been giving her. She was the sad one in this story she was always asking him if she did anything wrong. She would even apologize for what she didn't even know she did.

She was now so used to texting "Hey sweetie how's your day" and he will be like" gd".

She religiously called him, and texted him daily hoping that by doing that she would keep her tasteless and passionless relationship.