The sins Ateez x Yeosang

03

    Yeosang's pov

   "You aren't alone, Yeosang" resonated through my mind repeatedly. I cried hard, my hands cupping my face.

  "Hey, hey, it's okay, please don't cry. I'm sorry if I—" I cut San off with a tight hug around his shoulders. He gently hugged me back happily. A smile was on his cheeks as tears fell down mine.

   "You're the only person to tell me that, San. Thank you, I appreciate it." I sobbed, snot running from my nose. I wiped my face with my sweater sleeve as I stayed in his arms.

   "Once you bought this house, you gained seven friends. We aren't going to leave you, Yeosangie." Seonghwa promised. I pulled away from San and jumped onto Seonghwa in a hug. He hugged me back sweetly.

   "I have a question, though, Yeosangie." Seonghwa began. He rubbed his hand up and down my back soothingly. I'm hummed in question.

  "Why did you react like that when I got close to you?" I froze up in his hold. I sighed and pulled away.

  "The others should hear this too." San nodded and left to get the remaining five sins. Once they were back, I situated myself between Seonghwa and San.

  "Seonghwa asked a question, with an answer I thought all of you should hear. You guys should know why I am the disgraceful wreck of a person I am today. Please don't interrupt me." I began. I took a deep breath and continued slowly.

  "While I was in college two years ago, I had a boyfriend I would do anything for. I loved him, but obviously he didn't feel the same way. He would be very sweet and loving while others were around, but behind closed doors he was a monster."

  "He would talk down to me, abuse me, anything you can think of he did. I stupidly thought it was because I hadn't pleased him yet that caused him to treat me that way. I gave myself up to him, hoping he would love me, treat me right. I was wrong. I was so, so wrong."

   "He told his friends that I was an easy get- that I would have sex with anyone who wanted me. A few guys overheard, and believed him. They-" I cut myself off with a sob. I sniffled and wiped my tears.

  "They corned me in an alley way, and used me. They took my body, my body, and used it for their own selfish needs, despite me telling them not to touch me. They had their way, and I was too scared to tell anyone until now." I lowered my head, tears dripped onto my lap.

   "That was a year ago, but I'm still scarred. I can't eat, I can't sleep properly, I'm a scarred shell of a person. That's a reason I wouldn't let you be with me, Wooyoung. Selfish men in the past ruined me, and haven't even looked back at their mistake. I can't handle that again; it would literally kill me." I finished speaking, tears silently rolling continually.

  San pulled me to his lap and held me close to him. I snuggled into his shoulder and sobbed heavily. I felt six other hands rub themselves sweetly on my arms, legs and back. I sobbed harder remembering San and Yeosang's words.

  "Are you guys going to leave me, too? What I just said was a lot, I know; if you want me to go I will. I'll find another house and leave you guys be. I won't mind much." I asked tearfully.

   "No!" Hongjoong yelled angrily. I cowered fearfully and hid my face in San's neck. San held the back of my neck and my back gently.

  "Alright, calm down Wrath. You're scaring the poor guy! Look at him, he's crying harder over you yelling than telling his experience!" San exclaimed and held me as close to himself as he could. I locked my legs around his waist and kept my head in his neck

   "San, can I sleep with you instead?" I asked him quietly. San smiled happily.

   "Absolutely. Do you want to sleep now?" San questioned. I nodded my head slowly, my nose tickled his neck. He laughed softly and picked my up. He led one arm under my hips and the other around my waist.

  "I'm taking San to bed, he's had an eventful day and needs the rest." San spoke carefully, knowing I would cry again if a voice was raised. I tightened my legs around San and laid my cheek down on his shoulder, my eyes closed.

   "Even you? Am I that bad of a guy?" Wooyoung pouted, his bottom lip lowered. I raised my head.

   "It's nothing against you, it's just San has been nicest to me. Maybe tomorrow night." I spoke then yawned.  They all looked at me with sad smiled on their lips.

   "I can find those guys and punish them, Yeosangie. I'll get you the justice you deserve. My human job is a lawyer for a reason." Hongjoong spoke. I smiled at him.

   "Thank you, but I'd rather fight them first before you slam them behind bars. They don't deserve just being jailed alone." I spoke sweetly. They looked at me a little fearfully.

  "Alright. Do you know their names?" Jongho asked. I nodded my head.

   "Chae Hyung Won and Shin Won Ho." I said. The sins stiffened up.

   "Yeosang, we know both of them really well. I don't think they would rape you—"

   "Maybe you don't know everyone like you wish you did. I wish I knew my ex better, but I didn't. You'll never know someone fully, no matter what you think." I pushed verbally and hugged San tighter. He took my action and understood I wanted us to leave.

   San walked out of Seonghwa's bedroom and into his. He gently sat me on the bed, then climbed in beside me, leaving some space in the middle.

   "Can we cuddle?" I asked shyly. San nodded and opened his arms to me. I smiled and laid my head comfortably on his chest. I placed my right hand on his stomach and cuddled into his side. He wrapped his arms around me securely.

   "Just know I believe you. Sleep well." San spoke before I fell deep asleep.