Lifeline //m.yg

Chapter 11

Yoongi POV

I wanted to lock myself up in my studio. I wanted to ignore the guys telling me what they thought about Sun-Hi. I wanted to ignore the whole world while I decided what to do with these feelings.

Sun-Hi had left two hours ago and Namjoon had told me he felt assured that me and her hanging out was fine. But if he knew what I was feeling right he wouldn't be fine with it though.

The recording was still there on my laptop, untouched. I couldn't listen to it right now, my head already felt like it was going to explode.

"Taehyung, I need to talk to Taehyung," I whispered to myself and got out of the studio.

It was already late, but I needed someone to talk to and he would understand me.

Quietly I walked through the corridor to Taehyung's room. I felt a little bad about waking him up this late, but I needed to talk to someone.

I opened the door very carefully and peered inside. "Tae, are you up?" I whispered.

"Sort of." Taehyung's gruff voice sounded from underneath his blankets. "Come in."

I walked into his room and sat down on the edge of the bed.

Taehyung yawned as he scooted up against the headboard of his bed. "What's up? I don't think you're here just for fun, right?"

Was I going to say it out loud now? I guess I was. Although maybe I could just pretend it wasn't true if I never said it out loud.

No. I had to. I'd go insane if I kept this bottled up inside.

"I'm in love with Sun-Hi." I blurted out and looked away from Taehyung to my feet.

"You finally realized that, huh?" He said.

I looked up from my feet at him, he smiled at me a little apologetically. He knew this was hard for me. I've always been very adamant about not wanting a romantic relationship at this point in my life. Life has been too busy, music means too much to me, I couldn't put a girlfriend in the mix, that would complicate things.

"Do you know what you're going to do about it?" He asked
"Nothing, I think. She deserves someone who could devote all of their time to her. I sometimes don't see her for weeks and weeks on end." I said and let out a sigh. " She also deserves someone that can show her off to the world. If we were in a relationship we would have to keep it a secret."

Not to mention that I could never ruin our friendship. She is my everything, my rock, my home. I didn't want that to go away and what if a relationship with her didn't work out? I would lose her, and I couldn't deal with that.

"She's an idol too. She knows how busy our lives get. You guys have been doing this for a while now, talking to each other on the phone, face timing, sending each other stupid gifts and postcards from other countries. You're basically in a relationship already with her." Taehyung said. "The bonus would be that you would get to kiss her and call her your girlfriend."

That made my stomach do a flip.

"I just don't want to ruin anything," I said and let myself fall backwards on the bed with my arms spread wide.

"I'm sure she likes you too, Hyung. Don't worry about it."

"I hope so." I sighed.

Sun-Hi POV

"Eun-Hee, Haru. Can I talk to you guys?" I asked.

Eun-Hee sat down in front of me on the floor of the dance studio. "Of course, what's the matter?"