Daytime Dreamer

🤍 The Best Things

Hey everyone! So this one is kinda personal to me. I get self conscious about my body sometimes, and I felt the need to write this. Hope you all like it. ❤🤍

I kept staring at myself in the mirror. my eyes kept wandering down to my ribs, they were really prominent, and looked awful. Then I turn around to look at my back and I can see my spine. It was even more prominent. I hate the way I look, my clothes feel bigger, and no matter how much I eat, I can't gain an once. "God, I look almost sick..." I can feel tears starting to come, so I put my shirt back on and lay down on my bed, listening to my music, trying to take my mind off of how sick my body looks.

Before I can put my second earbud in, I hear a knock on my door. "Rhiannon? Sweetheart, are you okay?" I wipe a tear away and try to contain myself before opening the door. "Hey Delia. Yeah, I'm fine, was just listening to music." She can tell I'm lying about being fine, but decides not to say anything. "Ok, you hungry, darling?" "I don't feel really hungry at the moment." She gives me a sad smile. She always hated it when I didn't eat much. But what she didn't know was that I get stomachaches sometimes after I ate something. "Ok, just let me know when you're hungry and I'll make you something, okay, sweetheart?" I nod and she gives me a kiss on the forehead before leaving my room.

I wake up the next morning and find Cordelia sitting next to me on my bed, softly stroking my face. "Good morning, angel." I immediately smile and lean into her touch. "Morning, Delia." "How's my sweet, precious girl this morning?" I sit up and wrap my arms around her neck, pulling her in close. "I'm great now." She holds me tight, running her fingers through my hair. "Good, I'm glad... I was thinking we could have a nice breakfast together. It can be anything you'd like. Pancakes, waffles, French toast, anything..."

I immediately started to get nervous about eating. "I don't feel very hungry right now... I'll let you know whe-" "Stop lying to me." My eyes get big and my heart starts to beat a little faster. "She knows?" I try to play it off. "What are you talking about?" "I know you've been lying to me on why you haven't been eating lately. I don't know the reason why, but I want to help you, baby. Now please tell me why you haven't been eating..." I start to feel tears coming, and I almost feel like I can't breathe. "If I tell you, you'll get mad at me..." I say, just barely above a whisper. "No honey, I promise you, I won't." She reassures me, holding me tightly, kissing my head and running her fingers through my hair to calm me down. "Well, the reason why I haven't really eaten is cause, sometimes when I eat, my stomach gets in an uproar and I have to run to the bathroom. And then I'm afraid for the rest of the day, worrying that anything I put in my mouth will upset my stomach... so that's why I don't eat as much as I used to. I hope you're not mad at me..."

I then broke down in Delia's arms, feeling shame and embarrassment. "Sweetheart, look at me. Please, let me look at those beautiful eyes..." I look up at her and give her a sad smile. "You mean that? You really think my eyes are... beautiful?" "Of course I do. Your eyes are beautiful, your smile, your laugh, everything about you from head to toe is beautiful. And just because you're skinny, doesn't mean that you need to be embarrassed or ashamed, you're perfect the way you are. You're my sweet, perfect little angel and I could never be mad at you..." I started to cry again and hugged her tighter. "Sweetheart, please don't cry... I didn't mean to make you-"

"I'm not crying cause I'm sad, I'm crying cause I can't believe how lucky I am... I have you and the girls, this beautiful house, everything I could ever want, and you guys treat me like I'm made out of gold or something. I don't deserve all this..." Delia was now crying with me, wiping my tears away with her thumb. "No... baby, you do deserve all of this. But you deserve so much more. Me and the girls are the ones who don't deserve you, ever since you came into our lives, it has been nothing but fun and laughter and happiness... we are so blessed to have an angel like you in our lives..." I hugged her tighter than I ever have, enjoying the feeling of her embrace. "Hey Delia?" She pulls away a little to kiss my forehead and look at me. "Yes, baby?" "I feel a little hungry... could I have something to eat?" Delia smiles softly at me, and puts our foreheads together and kisses my nose, making me giggle. "Of course you can, babygirl. You can have anything you want..."