mistakes (jerrie)

part VII

Jade

I quickly did my night routine to get back to Perrie as soon as possible. As much as I didn't want to admit it, my body craves to be near her and it scares me to death. I don't want to be that dependent on Perrie, but unfortunately I feel like it's too late for me. I'm in too deep.

Pushing the door to my room open revealed an obviously uncomfortable Perrie standing awkwardly in the middle of my room with her arms crossed across her chest. Her eyes shot up to meet mine when I disturbed the silence she was thinking in.

"Jade?" she murmured, "Where did you want me to sleep? Because I would understand if you didn't want me in your bed but if your mum finds me on the couch I'm sure she would have questions." She had a point.

"Perrie I'm completely fine with you staying in my bed with me if you are." She nodded slowly before walking over to the left side of my bed and laying down. She for some reason enjoys the left side more than the right and has even conducted her own "experiments" a couple times she's stayed over and claims the left side has the better view of my tv and doesn't get a draft from the window. She's a dork. But I love that dork.

I quickly turned off the lights and joined her on my bed. When I laid down, I realized I wasn't sure how to act around her. We were in an awkward spot in our relationship and that led us to have an abnormal amount of space between us. Physically and mentally.

Just as I was about to fall asleep, Perrie finally said something.

"Jade how do you put up with my shit?" She said, barely above a whisper.

"What?" I asked, confused as to where this thought suddenly came from.

"How do you put up with my shit," She asked again, turning on her side to face me. "I overdosed and ended up in the hospital. You're still with me. I went to rehab. You're still with me. I break your trust. You're still with me. I go to a party. You come get me and make sure I'm okay. How do you keep doing this? I'm absolutely awful to you and you keep coming back to help me. Why."

I blinked at her. I thought it was obvious but I guess I didn't make it so.

"Perrie I came and saved your ass tonight because I love you." I said simply, "But you have to understand that I can't keep doing this. For my sake and for yours. If you can't control yourself then maybe you need to go back to rehab. If you keep doing this and I keep going around and making sure you're staying out of trouble then I can't tell you how my mental state will look at the end of this." She never broke eye contact with me, and I could tell she was taking every word I said seriously despite her previously being very fucked up. "So Perrie, I need to ask you something," I continued, "Can you promise me that you'll stop. If I mean anything to you then I need you to promise me you'll stop. If you can't do that I can't tell you I'll be around much longer." She looked at me for a while before pulling me into her arms so my head was resting on her chest. She kissed my head before speaking.

"I promise."

That's exactly what I wanted to hear. But whether or not she would follow through with it was the real question.

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The next morning I woke up in Perrie's arms and it brought me back to before any shit went down. Back when we could just be with each other and the only arguments or issues we had were regarding who paid for dinner or who drove who home. Nothing nearly as heavy as what we've been dealing with recently. If we can get through this however, I think we could get through anything.

I didn't want to wake Perrie up, knowing that if I did it would most likely put her in a bad mood for the rest of the day, so I settled with slowly untangling myself from her arms and making my way to the kitchen to figure out some sort of breakfast. I knew once Perrie woke up she would be hungry and weirdly enough I felt like I could eat. Not much but I did want a slice of toast or something.

As I turned the corner to the kitchen, I was met with my mum making tea before she had to head to work.

"Morning pet," she said once she noticed me, "How was your date last night?"

"Oh it was nice, Perrie is still asleep, I don't want to wake her up yet" I said, "I was gonna make her breakfast."

"Well that's nice of you Jade, just make sure you make yourself something to eat as well,"

"I will mum, have a good day at work,"

"Thanks Jadey, enjoy your last day before you have to head back to school, stay out of trouble," she said as she kissed my cheek and headed out the door.

I sighed, looking back into the kitchen to try and figure out what to make Perrie before she woke up.

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One hour and two pieces of toast later, I had successfully made 5 pancakes that were not burnt. I placed two of them on a separate plate for Perrie whenever she woke up and set it up on the counter before I made my way to the living room to see what was on tv.

I must have fallen asleep because next thing I knew, my head was being moved from the pillow it originally rested on to the familiar feeling of Perrie's lap. She started combing my hair, relaxing me back towards my sleep. But before I fully fell back asleep, she started talking, which caught my attention.

"Jadey I know I know I'm shit at keeping promises but I swear this one I'm going to keep," she said, "I love you beyond words. Oh and thank you for the pancakes. They were delicious."

I fell back into my sleep with a smile on my face and Perrie's hands still massaging my scalp.

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When I woke again, my head was still resting on Perrie's lap and the sun was setting lowly in the window by the kitchen.

I sat up, a little confused as to what happened when I was met with Perrie's cute, stupid little smirk.

"Hi baby," She said, "You've been asleep for most of the day, but I let you sleep because I was the reason you had to go out last night. Oh and also your mum called and is going to be home late."

I blinked a couple times before I was able to form a coherent thought. "How long was I out for?" I asked.

"Well depending on when you woke up, probably around 5 hours. But don't worry, there's plenty of time still left in the day," she said with that cute smirk still on her face, "I want to take you out tonight, on a real date. We haven't had the best time since I got back and I want to make it up to you." I blinked a couple times before a small smile broke out on my face.

"Okay, where are we going?" I asked.

"That's for me to know and you to find out," she smiled at me.

"Perrie you are aware that I'm going to have to be the one to drive us right? You'll have to tell me eventually."

"Yes baby I'm aware, but I can keep it a secret for a little longer" She reached up to caress my cheek. A blush fell over me as I melted to her touch. She smiled at me and pecked my lips. Now, I'm going to go home and get ready and I suggest you get your beautiful ass ready as well."

"Are you insinuating that I don't look great right now," I jokingly said, aware that I was still sporting my bed head and pjs from last night.

"Well I happen to think you look beautiful anyway you are but I have a feeling that where were going they wont appreciate your bedhead and morning breath," She leaned closer to me and whispered in my ear, "And I also think I should be the only one to to see you with messy hair in the morning." I giggled and shoved her shoulder playfully.

"I'll drive you home, come on," I said, finally sitting up from the couch to pull on my shoes and a jacket for the short drive to Perrie's house. 

Okay lmao sorry this took so long, I sort of lost motivation but I got this part out, sorry if it sucks. Also I got a tattoo the other day! I was thinking to maybe get another one potentially subtly dedicated to little mix but I have no idea what I would get, do you guys have any suggestions? 

see ya next update  :)