Impossible Love

Chapter 25

Me: *moaning/trying to talk* I-I- Isayah

Isayah: *pounding harder* yeah baby, say my name

Me: *trying to block the pleasure* no Isayah stop

Isayah: *pulling out/ turning me to face him* what's wrong? I do something wrong?

Me: No umm... Look down

Isayah: *looking down* aww shit

~20 min later in the hospital~

Me: Isayah, I doubt if they can tell if I'm pregnant now

Isayah: I still wanna be safe even if we here all night.... Do you know what this means?... *wide eyed* I'm finally going to have a mini me, our baby gon have some sexy ass gen's our hair, my eyes, you skin complexion, I hope it's a boy, we got to make it official, how are we gonna explain to our child how he was conceived, you know what? We won't, that won't be good---

Me: Isayah, please calm down, take a breath, you ok?

Isayah: Yeah I'm fine

Then a nurse came out and called our names

~waiting for the doctor~

Nurse: Doctor Ishmell will be with you guys in just a few moments

Isayah: Thank you

And the nurse left out

Me: I'm scared

Isayah: *standing in between my legs/ pressing his forehead against mines* don't be, I will be here every step of the way

He kissed my forehead and I felt safe in his arms. Then the Doctor came in

Dr. Ishmell: hello Ms. Greene and Mr. Johnson, so you think Ms. Greene here is pregnant, did you show any signs of pregnancy

Me: No, not even an hour ago did he... Well you know, ejaculated in me so I wouldn't know if I am

Isayah: Yeah but we still want to be safe

Dr. Ishmell: Well this is normal for a young couple to be scared, nervous. But in 12-24 hours your body knows its pregnant. But you wont know for about 3 weeks maybe even less

Isayah: Is there anyway to find out now?

Dr. Ishmell: *shaking his head* sorry but no Mr. Johnson

~Back at isayah's condo~

Me: So what do we do?

Isayah: I don't know, I guess we have to play the waiting game

We walked upstairs and got in bed, he pulled me closer to him in the middle of the bed and wrapped me in his arms with one hand rubbing my stomach

Isayah: I hope something good is forming in there

Me: Me too

I placed my hand on top of his and we fell asleep

~The next morning~

I woke up still in Isayah's arms, I turned over to face him and I looked into his peaceful sleeping face and smiled. I think he would be a great dad, he was so happy to think I was pregnant but I'm scared out of my fucking mind. What the fuck am I going to do with a damn baby, I'm trying to go to college and with what I want to be I'm going to be in there for at least 8 years. I love kids but I don't want one right now, I need to wait on having this baby, but Isayah was so happy and I don't want to hurt him we can work something out. Isayah eyes started to open so I closed mines, I didn't want him to think I was plotting on him while he was sleep or something, then I felt him push my hair back behind my ear and rub his thumb down my cheek so I opened my eyes slowly looking into his deep blue eyes

Me: Good morning

Isayah: *grinning sweetly* good morning, how'd you sleep

Me: Good, and you?

Isayah: I really couldn't I just laid here thinking of everything and watched you sleep

I couldn't do anything but smile at him... He is so damn sweet

Isayah: I was also thinking that if you're not ready to have a baby, even if you are pregnant, I wouldn't love you any less as I do now

Me: You, you love me?

Isayah: *wide eyed* I said that out loud?

Me: *giggling* yes, yes you did

Isayah: Well yes, I do love you and it won't hurt me if you don't say it back, I'd like if you do but I will wait for that, and I dont want you saying it now because it'll make me feel like you saying it out of sympathy

Me: Ok

Isayah: Ok

He pulled me in closer and kissed my lips soft

Isayah: Ok for the Vegas trip, we are going next week, we are driving my escalade

Me: All four of us?

Isayah: Yes but different rooms

Me: Ok but can we get back on the baby subject?

Isayah: Yeah sure

Me: Can we go get some pregnancy tests?

Isayah: Yeah *getting up* lets go

He threw on a red obey shirt and I put on his house slippers and we walked to the car. Once we got in the car and driving it was total silence, why? I don't know, because I'm use to Isayah talking about something random or trying to start a conversation with me, but... Nothing. He might just be thinking so I'm not going to talk until he's ready.

Isayah: You ok?

Me: Yeah, I was just wondering the same about you

Isayah: Yeah I'm fine

My stomach started to churn and I felt like a lump was in my throat then my my mouth got dry all at once

Me: *holding my stomach* I don't feel so good, can you pull over

He pulled over and I got out and everything came up, sad thing is I ain't eat shit yet so I was throwing up shit I ate in the middle of the night. I was done and got in the car

Isayah: You good now?

Me: Kind of

He pulled into the cvs parking lot and we got out. Once we got in we walked into the aisle where the pregnancy test was at and I bought one he bought the other and we put half on the last one.

~back at the condo~

Isayah: Can I come in with you now?

Me: *Studying the three test that I just peed on* yes

He came in and set on the side of the tub and I set on the toilet lid

Isayah: *smiling* I'm nervous

Me: Me too

We set in silence for a while but Isayah impatient ass got up and looked at the test and he looked at them for a minute and started to smile, I got up and saw that two of them had a positive sign but only one was negative I was shocked... Actually I don't know what I was. Isayah was so damn happy he picked me up in the air hugging me. I care for Isayah but I can't miss out on school, I can't miss out on school.

Isayah: *putting me down* so... What are we going to do?

I stood there looking out into space making up nice ways to say no

Inside thoughts~ say something, tell him how you feel

Me: We're having a baby!

Isayah: Yeaaaahhhh!!!!!

Inside thoughts: What the fuck bitch!!