Impossible Love

Chapter 28

~2 weeks later~

Isayah thought it would be a good idea if I stay at his house for a while so I could give Christian some space so he could calm down so I have been here for 2 weeks. The night I got out the hospital Isayah went and got some of my stuff. Even though it's been 2 weeks I've been calling Christian and he don't answer my calls, I call Chaz and he answer for me and we talk but every time I just wish it was Christian so I could apologize. So today I'm going over to the hotel to see him

Isayah: That's not really a good idea, have he ever been this pissed at you?

Me: No

Isayah: You want me to come with you?

Me: No im good

I went and put on blue cloth shorts and my white v-neck with my white flip flops then grabbed my wallet, phone, and keys then left

~at the hotel~

I was scared to knock on the door because I didn't know who would answer then I remembered

Me: *talking to myself* I got the room key

I put the card in slowly scared out of my fucking mind then opened the door when I walked through I saw Christian sitting on the bed so I went over and set beside him on the bed

Me: You know I love you right?

He didn't reply

Me: Well I do and these 2 weeks has been hell for me and I miss you, when you walked out that door it felt like a piece of me walked out there with you, *tears welling up in my eyes* you have a part of me no one can have, only you

He still wasn't answering me and the hot tears started to fall down my cheeks

Me: Christian talk to me!!

Christian: *sitting up looking at me* you don't know how horrible I felt, when did he do that to you?

Me: When I was 9

Christian: And we was friends, I was 10, I saw a change in you, I asked, you said you was fine every time, you know you was the first person I told I was gay?

Me: Yes, And I was there when you told your parents, I was there with you when your mom put you out because you was dating Chaz, you stayed with me in my room I was you friend and was there with you through everything but I was still too scared to tell you

Christian: I remember all of that and I still love you for all of that, but Brit I felt hurt because you didn't tell me, like, did you not trust me?

Me: I didn't know how I would tell you, I only told Isayah because he was someone I didn't know and he wouldn't judge me

Christian: So you thought I was gonna judge you?

Me: I didn't know what you was gonna do

We was sitting Indian style in front of each other and he grabbed my hands and held them in his hands

Christian: I'm always here, for anything you need, I love you boo don't ever think other wise, I would never judge you for anything, and im sorry for adding more stress on you after what happened, are you and Isayah fine

Me: Yeah we good, the doctor told us we couldn't have sex for a week after the miscarriage, and when that week was up he ran me a bubble bath, when I got out he gave me a full body massage and it felt so good, after we made love and that was the best part of the night, I love that man with all my heart

Christian: Why can't Chaz do that?

Me: Where is Bae?

Christian: At the store

Me: I love you!

Christian: I love you too

He pulled me into a huge hug and I felt like home

Christian: You have always been my lil sister we fight, we argue but we always stay this way

Me: *chuckling a little* and I always love it

Christian: Me too

Then we heard the door opening and Chaz turned the corner

Chaz: Thank God! I was so damn tired of yall assholes

Me: Hi babe

Chaz: Are you Coming back to us?

Me: I don't know if Isayah would let me

Chaz: I dont give a fuck you coming back

Me: Lol only if you want me back

Christian: I do, I missed you

Me: Ok I'm coming back tomorrow

Chaz: Yaaayyy!! *jumping on me*

Christian: You don't jump on me like that

Chaz: *still on top of me* that's because I jumped on you last nigh in a way better way

Me: EW

Chaz: Girl please, Isayah didn't knock them boots

Me: Last night, no

Christian: Why not

Me: He was at work but when he got back I gave him a full body massage then he fell asleep

Christian: Yall so damn cute

Me: Yall are too

Christian: We know

Chaz got off of me and we just set there reminiscing about our childhood and how we all met each other

Christian: It was weird how we met

Me: Yeah it was

Chaz: Actually how did yall meet

Me: You wanna tell him

Christian: Yeah, well first off we met when I was 9 and she was 8, she was a cutie pie I liked girls well I thought I liked girls so me and her dated, I just walked up to her and said be my girlfriend

Me: Now I was new at the school, I didn't know anyone and for him to come to me on my first day and ask me that was crazy, but because I didn't know him I said sure, all I heard was friend in that whole word and I wanted one

Christian: Yeah so we dated up untill I was 11 and she was 10 we had our first kiss beside the monkey bars at recess that same day she broke up with me at her house

Me: *laughing* you ate my animal crackers while I was in the bathroom you had to go

Chaz: *laughing* damn you loved animal crackers that much?

Me: Shit loved? I still love em

Christian: *laughing* She slapped my hand before she came here over some animal crackers because i reached in that big ass family bag for 2

Me: Don't mess with me and the animal crackers

Christian: Trust me I won't

Chaz: Damn I want know more, how did yall get back as friends

Me: The next day he apologized and brought me some animal crackers

Chaz: Awwwwwww

Christian: Yeah we been through a lot together, shit I've been through a lot but Brit has always been there, sad to say but I couldn't be there for everything she been through

Me: You was there, just being my friend

Christian: Awww boo

He pulled me into a bear hug and Chaz hugged onto us too

Me: I love you two

Chaz/Christian: We love you too