"Can I have some?" B asks
"Take the whole plate, I'm not hungry"
I respond trying to cover up why I'm not eating.
"You ate you veggies and that's it, and there was only about two mouthfuls there."
There was eight of us at the table including Miss. N and Mr. H and of course Miss.N was sitting next to me of all people why her? She hasn't said anything though which is good.
"Pull that face again I wanna take a photo" Lu says
The other end of the table is in hysterics when I hear the voice of someone's I wasn't looking forward to.
"You need to eat, you're going to get sick and that's the last thing you need"
"No one would care, they are all oblivious and of course you of all people was the only one that picked up on it!" I respond bluntly to Miss.N
"Ouch!" I say after she kicks me under the table
"I care and you can't say that around me and you know that"
Dessert gets placed down in front of us and I try and palm mine off as fast as possible. It's taken like a flash of lightening without a question asked. Thank goodness.
I get up and walk to the bathroom as I come out to wash my hands the door opens.
"Don't start this, you were getting better, you promised me you would stop hurting. I want you to have the funniest time away not suffer when you're back home."
"I am! I simply went to the toilet. I am having a fun time, I haven't broken that promise"
Shit! The promise, I have broken the promise, I have totally forgotten that letter I wrote containing the promise.
"....... I can't control what you do, only you can. I know you feel like this is the only thing you can control right now. People are going to notice its only night one there are still four nights to go"
"I will be fine Miss.N, people won't notice only you will because you are aware."
I walk out, my thoughts consumed about the promise, how can I break that promise to her. It was so easily forgotten when I took the sharp blade slicing my flesh into two.
